Christmas and a reading

Another Christmas come n go. Weather was definitely an issue this year I mean I love a white Christmas n all but this was crazy i narrowly escaped the Manhattan blizzard and went down to my hometown of norton. Got to hang with family in the midst of yet another wicked winter storm I actually just relaxed alot and hung out with my brothers and fam. For christmas I got every thing i could have wanted and more. Not only did i get to spend time with my family and see my Grandma but Gran game me the first installment of my family's history. My mom gave me a ton of Neil Gaiman books. American Gods, Good Omens, Magical Creatures, interworld, and then on top of that sense my brother stephen had already been gifted books that he got they came to me. Sense and sensibility and sea monsters and pride and prejudice and zombies. Then I got several games, Zelda spirit tracks, Kindom hearts for DS, and scribblenauts, and the Wii game Conduit. its been a great Christmas i wish I had brought home my Metroid game so i could have played that with my brothers. Also realized just how far advanced in art my little brothers are. Dear god I just hope to catch up someday they are both prodigies.

I will be working alot these coming weekes thanks to a trip i will be taking to Chicago with my friend Meredith. Should be great fun. aside from some crazy difficulties with the airlines and getting a name change. Apparently its a really hard thing to do. Which I'm surprised at cause I think it should be way easier in this techno age. Sigh. What can ya go right. Well that aside, I made it back to Manhattan safe. It was quite a drive but I did it. I have one of the busiest work weeks ever plotted at carlos. So that will be draining but i should be able to work it and it will give me the hours i need to cover the time missed. or at least it better. lol

Tonight I got to hang out with an old friend of cherry's shes quite an interesting girl and she wanted to do a tarot card reading on me. The cards i pulled were Art, Virtue and anti adjustment basically me in a nut shell it was an interesting read. But for irhgt now i need to sleep.

Post Christmas

So it's that time of year again time to go and hang out with the fam and do the Christmas thing. Weather aside I always look forward to hanging out with my family they are so wonderful and I'm a better person for getting to hang out with them. So far I have gotten to go to a few Christmas parties before heading back to Norton and sadly a few anti-Christmas parties for all those hipsters who hate to label things.

Art wise I am still trying to push out commissions like an old man trying to take a dump. Seriously with this new work schedule doing art and having a social life are starting to be affected. But I'm willing to push through all that if it means graduating and getting my debt squared away finally. I already have my spending money ready to go for Chicago so that's a none issue and after that its just a matter of making sure my car and computer don't piss out on me.

As far as social networking is going my favorite activity recently is poetry night I have really gotten into writing poems. Never really done it before but it's nice to have a new creative outlet although Cherry thinks I'm better than her and that erks her off cause poetry is her thing lol and art should be mine. Like I said i really enjoy the new creative outlet plus it takes way less time to do than art. Not that i'll stop doing art. Speaking of cherry we have started a new workout routine that's actually getting me exercising again which is good if I'll be getting back into yosakoi full time again. I really hope I will be considering this may be our last year.

So cherry and I's weird relationship is about the closest thing I have to a relationship right now. The last two girls I have pursued have both gone back to X's and left me wondering. I guess go with what's safe and what you know as opposed to what you don't know. I'm a risk I guess. Oh well I ought to stop looking right. I haven't even gotten to see anjana in like forever. That's the worst. :( Oh well life goes on but I'm a romantic and I need someone to shower my affections on lol .

Well that's about all peace all have a great one.

Sushi and Strippers

So this week been all sorts of topsy turvy Gotta say I have loved it all. Sink beer was a blast got to hang out with Caitlin a little more although turns out shes having crazy issues with X's much like Mackenzie was. So here's a yay for me crushing on girls with X's lol Tuesday I read my first real poem at a poetry slam at auntie maes and i can safely say it was a hit. Ran into Mackenzie there first time I have seen her well sense the play. She loved my poem too so that's cool. Cherry and Michael both said it rocked. Totally walking on cloud nine that night. Wed was art night and this girl Betsy came over and she was wicked cool created some really cool metal works based on that nights theme. So moving on to Thursday when I got to go to Auntie maes Christmas lighting ceremony. Pretty amazing even though a drunk santa spilt a drink on this girl Kate I was hanging out with. Later that night I got to hang out with Meredith Lindsey needless to say our friendship is stronger thanks to it. :D So ended that night and I got super excited for the next day because I was going to give Cherry a ride to KC so she could spend the day with her crazy cool cuzin. After dropping her off me and Asuka this crazy cool Japanese girl that asked me to help her do something that I will reveal later had come along . We both went and got sushi and Sushi Gin It was so good definitely always worth the amount I spend there to eat. Lets just say it's a dollar sushi place and I spend 30 dollars :d. After that we got lost in KC and then finally found our way to Lawrence where we got lost again. I was really good at getting us lost and Finally back to Topeka where both Asuka and I got to go to a strip club for the first time in our lives. Live nude models for 5 bucks. This is something I should have done ages ago i got so many drawings done I was on a role and will post them later after I ave touched them up. The lighting there was abysmal. I definitely need to get another sketch book for nights like that. The water color one is way to ruff for quick sketching. Made friends with several of the girls there. Mainly a girl named star she was really cool and had the whole triforce from zelda tattooed on her back. Yeah shes that cool. Definitely going back in the future to draw again. So yeah this whole week has been one awesome day after another. :D

What a week

So this has been an interesting week. One for a the records I would imagine. One to out do the last one by miles that's for sure. I go from being wildly blah about a lack of love to an overwhelming show of affection from the fairer sex. Starting Monday at sink beer. Where i not only got hit on by several girls but one guy. i know I know I'm spoced to feel weird about a dude hitting on me. WHAT EVER! I don't care who hits on me it makes me feel pretty. One there is Anjana and we all know i love this girl to death. Shes one of my best friend and very pretty to boot. Sometimes, i think we don't know what to do with each other cause we dig on each other but there's that 4 yr friendship that's like wait a sec your best friends. So i take her affections with both acceptance an humility knowing full well we'll probably never act on it but shes so awesome. So here's to you Anjana you know I love you but it's worth repeating you are amazing and I treasure all the moments i spend with you. jeffery the fella that hit on me. I mean come on this guys just a catch if I was into dudes i would have taken the chance lol but he's really great and much thanks to you jeffrey for making me feel pretty that night. Lastly, Caitlin Cash besides having one of the coolest names ever we have an epic real introduction and I say real because our paths have crossed in social situations before but we've never been formally introduced till that night. So that night she made the wonderful assumption that she might get drunk and lets face it at sink beer it's bound to happen and then warned me she might try n make out with me because I looked like Pen from Pen n Teller. Well I was completely ok with that the girl was cute as hell. So later that same night anjana came by slightly inebriated poor thing she always gets really flirty when she's a bit tipsy not that i mind I love the affection. But yeah Caitlin said she was going to have to head out saddened that i had missed the chance to kiss a pretty girl I spoke up and said "HEY! we never got to make out?" She promptly said well get over here n kiss me. Whats a boy to do i lept up n gave her that kiss she so richly deserved.

Two days later were being escorted out of a theater because high school kids think its funny to pull fire alarms. Not that I minded spending an extra 30 with this new girl but it was farking cold out there and she was wearing pretty shoes that showed her toes I just had to assume she was freezing. We finally made it back into the theater and watched what turned out to be one of my favorite movies this yr. The fantastic Mr. Fox. So far aside from destroying my thumbs with texting she has been nothing but a pleasure and a new reason to smile. So tonight she had a going away party pub crawl and myself well my cuzin was coming into town so we did the sensible thing and all met at maes. So it was another night were I got to hang out with her and some of her friends. Sully made sure I felt awesome about myself I mean seriously that girl coudl make the saddest emo kid give up the razor. On top of that I had my hair down again so another slightly drunk girl tried getting me to kiss her and there's always Katie the bar tender whom I will always remember as Zatanna which mind you if i ever had a daughter i would probably name her that. We have an interesting love affair. Shes crazy busy and I'm too dumb to remember to text her to hang out but we always love seeing each other at maes. I'll have to go more often. But heres to another great week. :)

le sigh

Hasn't been the best week ever I can definitely say that without reservation. Started off on Mon with Sink beer which was fun times for sure. but after that quickly feel by the wayside as all my friends are apparently busy with school n work leaving me sadly alone. Luckily There was a new Dr. Who this week. Ah David Tennant. You never disappoint. But yeah it's been kinda a downer week but what can ya do sometimes everyone is just busy. I have also recently descoverd Live stream and have been using that regurally. Check that out if you get time. I'm saintpepsi there. But yeah, cherrys got a new boytoy, my last intrest hasn't instagated a conversation in like a month and my dearest anajan was gone away on work. Can't wait for next week it better be an upper week lol except for having to work from 6 to like 5 on black friday Aggghhhh. thats all fro now pretty short one i know :D peace all

pepsi

Thanksgiving ALREADY!?!

So I got to go home and enjoy what one might consider to be an early Thanksgiving. Ms. Goodwin was to accompany me but sadly was tied up with Guys n Dolls a musical I still have yet to see go figure. Anyway, haven't heard from her really in a long while going to go ahead and assume things won't be working out on that front. I have secured the allegiance of my dear friend Jen to find me the perfect girl whom she says she has located in Lawrence. I guess I'll have to see. I no longer do the whole attempting to disguise myself as whom I think people want me to be so as to be better available for a larger girl populace. Probably would have helped me out tonight when i met the lead from guys n dolls and in a bit of a drunken loudness promptly yelled something at her that could have easily been said quietly lol. Oh well another sound first impression made. Sink beer has become a wonderful Monday night extrusion for me though. Good drinks good friends. I even don't have to feel bad about all those crabs because Cherry and I are doing DDR prior to it.

Well back to this weekend my brothers the twins were in a play called My son the Rock. Kinda felt like a Grimm fairy tale about this king and queen whom are basically very un-impressed with their son and piss off a witch who through a matter of coincidence convinces them that she has turned their son into a rock. My brothers were very good in it along with a few of their friends but it was still a high school play and sadly I have seen both Broadway and very well done college productions. I guess I have been spoiled. I really can't wait to see my brothers in college plays because they have a great energy.

I actually didn't get into political arguments with my family. That's always good we have different view points on the world possibly screwed by news. But what can you do. I did get to see my cousin Jess and Michelle both of which i haven't seen in quite a while. And My mother whom I largely thank just for the chance to watch her watch spots once again made watching sports quite amusing. As she jumped and hollered and screamed KU to victory in basketball and sadly not quite as effectively in football. But mainly I was just really glad to get to hang out with my family and have really goo food. Even better than that sense it wasn't a huge turn out I didn't over eat so no feelings of thanksgiving gluttony guilt. All good here.

Lastly I want to point out a new book I read over this short break by Neil Gaiman Called The Graveyard Book. The Graveyard book click on this title for a summary. Is Neil Gaiman at his absolute best It's written in much the same fashion as the jungle book except instead of a jungle charged with raising a young boy. it's the souls of a graveyard. Each new chapter in a new and fascinating adventure through the eyes of a boy raised by ghosts. If you read one book this yr make sure it is this one.

Well that's all for me Have very pleasant Thanksgiving all.

Jordan

The Ethnic sleeping Cap

So A while ago I was walking through Wal-mart looking for some hair nets Now they had the kind that the lunch lady wears and I was like while I will be using this for food prep I don't really want the lunch lady look. Kept walking checking different areas in the hair care area and I stumble upon the "ETHNIC" section its all of 1/4 of an isle long obviously, we don't have too many Ethnic people in Manhattan or they must go elsewhere for their haircare needs. Well I found a much better caliber of hair nets. They were a lot more expensive but so far have lasted way longer. While I was there I found a sleeping cap made of satin. Thought, interesting something to keep my crazy long hair from attempting to murder me every night. So I grabbed that to. Let me just say for the record it totally works. I love it! I wake up in the morning not pulling hair from my eyelids, mouth and wrapped menacingly around my neck. I just pull of this satin cap and down it falls. Better still it falls with that signature bounce and vitality that hair has in shampoo ads. With that slight curly bounce.

So while I am not "Ethnic" I gotta say this product is totally worth it to anyone who has long hair. So in other news today was the first day of Auntie Maes Mighty fine poetry night featuring my poster. Pretty excited It turned out really well. Also did the art for my friends radio show which was spoced to happen tonight but they forgot their keys so the radio just played christian rap music for like 2 hrs. I will be a guest next week though. Man my birthday is creeping up on me here pretty soon I'll be 28 does that sound old to anyone else. O.o Oh well maybe this year will be better than the last :D

Peace all

Pepsi

Doe a Deer

So last night as I was doing my normal nothing here at home. Watching house and drawing when I got an IM from my friend Gaby to come carve pumpkins. I was pretty excited I love doing the carving thing :D So I took off to go carve up some pumpkins and luckily on my way down my street that is in the middle of town I was paying attention because out of no where two deer jumped right in front of my car. I slammed on the breaks the first one dodged to the left and I felt it bump my car slightly and the other one did one of those crazy back jumps that deer do also avoiding my car. Got my adrenaline going for sure. Made my way over to Gaby's place where unfortunately, all the pumpkins had been cut up. She said she was surprised so many people had made it over lol. So I had a few drinks and just hung out and watched em play some Wii sports. I also found out that the oldest person there was 23. 23 O.o !!!!!!

Made me think man this town is not made for people my age. You meet a particularly awesome girl and she's 6 yrs younger than you. In this instance there were a few there that were still teenagers. I started dating cherry when she was 21, and Mackenzie albeit We're not dating even though I'd like to give that a try lol She's still 21 too. Maybe, I should be looking for a place where the singles scene isn't fresh outa high school. I have made a rule though I will not date anyone under 21. It's not that I don't think they can be mature enough lord knows I'm just as crazy and immature as any high school kid sometimes.

Its just that girls as well as guys need to come into their own and know who they are and with out that period of acceptance of self; then you get from them exactly what they think you want them to be and not who they are. Even now I still find it difficult not trying to be what i think a person wants me to be to woe them. You want a person to see all your best qualities even if your not like that at all. I'm sure there are guys out there who act like complete dicks because they know girls are looking for guys who aren't trying to be what they want and end up with a dick lol. Weirder still is nice guys who see girls hooking up with one prick after another make the assumption that you have to be a prick to get the girls you like. sigh. Crazy missed up world my friends.

So here I am to my knowledge and the references of my peers I am a nice person with good qualities, not a bad boy, not a dick. I'm just me I'm not always exciting, I like to be boring sometimes and others I'll be completely spontaneous and run around like a crazy person. I'm the far left and the far right. I'm overall moral and yet too often lecherous and immoral. I live on a whim of what can make me smile and what will help me truly treasure a moment. A brilliant color in the fall that causes you to stop and look at the trees, An intoxicating aroma as a girl passes and the wind whips the memory of your brief encounter back to you. Mainly, just looking for someone to hold and love. All I need no great over compensating list built around the assumption of the perfect girl. Let me have a flawed and interesting girl over a pieced together robot made from my own quirky needs. Just my thoughts today.

Ready to embark again

I was having a lengthy talk with an old friend of mine and they said something that stuck with me. I am ready to fall in love again, ready to chance getting my heart broken again. Her name is Aimee Smith and I have a great deal of respect for this person. I thought about what she had said and thought to myself. I too am ready to take on the challenge of love again and the possibility of heartbreak. Really, that's the ultimate disablement to our think it out or jump methodology. To keep your heart in check or slide it out to be torn apart by the reavers of that realm. It seems that all my close friends are on the fence about my new crush with the assumption that I will be left broken and hurt again. Really, I have no idea the course my life will take and I am so tired of being kept up with what if's. I really just want to fall head over heels for someone that loves me the same. To fall with each other through fields of clover and lay laughing as we attempts to give clouds meaning.

I guess this has come to a greater fruition thanks to the news of an Ex moving on. Hell, all of them moving on to happiness and me left hoping for my romance unachievable. Maybe, the ideal girl that I have established in my minds eye is just a dream. An assumptions never to be realized. Man I want to be back in Japan. Soaking up an altogether new culture and living in the moment ever second. I want a new insomniac friend someone to stay up late and bullshit with. Someone to go on grand adventures with. I never want to plateau. I see it in my roommates sometimes a mediocraty that consumes. With out reason to achieve they stay and ferment. I live to experience each new moment and to garner what little I can from quick thoughts not meant to be dwelt on. For now I guess i'll just wait and hope that things will turn out alright and I'll find the one that I'm meant to be with the one that loves me with my quirky attributes that are delightful and my annoying grievances that would ward off ill suitors. Such is the hope I have. A future to look forward to.

Why we are the way we are.

So Mackenzie and I went to the Ren fest and wow was it cold. Did my best to keep her warm but yeah somethings are out of my hands lol. After seeing one of my favorite Pirate bands The Jolly Rogers. And many thanks to Mackenzie for turning me on to a band called The Decemberists how I have never heard of them blows my mind. On our way back after rushing as fast as our frozen feet could carry us to the car. We made it to Topeka in time to find our venue and then get some Red Lobster. Then off to one of the most entertaining Musicals I have ever seen and I highly recommend anyone checking this out. EVIL DEAD the Musicall. :) so much fun. Oddly enough the best friend in it was a Door Guy I knew from O Mallys. But yes ever so epic. Mackenzie and I's next adventure will be around Nov. 14th traveling back to my home town. Might be a major bonfire with some crazy explosions if my brother and I can make it happen lol.

For now this weekend I will have my art up in a private art show here in town and right after that rush off to Blood feast as one of the wild things. Should be a fun filled weekend with lots of crazy pictures. With any Luck Mackenzie will be feeling better. The week after this I'll have the pleasure of seeing the play she's in called The last Days of Judas Iscariot.

Finally I'll wax intellectual with you the few that read this lol.

Last night I had art night at my house and had Kevin, Zac, and Keagan over so yeah there were actually people working on art. But we were watching this crazy show with many different animations in it. One of them sparked a conversation about story telling and the effects it has on the youth. So I thought back and said really as children or even youthful teens we take what we want from stories and mold ourselves as such. Take a story with a powerful villain, add an unlikely hero and a damsel and what not. Basically any Disney movie. Sure the picture is painted that the villain is the bad one but what if you relate more to the villain in the story and or desire the power that they have. Even if they are defeated in the end you can still opt for that kind of power and hope to make choices that allow you to keep your ill gotten spoils. Sure we are all spoced to side with the hero but as I did many times in my youth related to the villain and the struggle they had to go through to maintain control of their dominion.

I found this particularly interesting when I had the chance to watch Mongol. Its a Russian made movie that obviously had a director in love with akira kurosawa. The movie was about Genghis Khan it showed how he rose to power and what he went through and as history tells it he was a conqueror who sparred few and ruled fiercely. Some might say a villain but the steps that lead him there are easily understandable and filled with good intentions. So it makes me wonder when we tell tales to impressionable minds what virtues are we actually imprinting on them. Traits of a hero we so long for them to become or are we showing them glimpses of the power that can so easily be obtained with the loss of scruples and the willingness to set aside your values for good intentions that ultimately fall into a deeper chaos.

Meh just some thoughts any way gotta work on some art peace.

Off to Chicago

So Mackenzie has allowed me to be super spontaneous as of late. Making plans at random and that's a breath of fresh air Coming from so many days of the same. Just waking up going to work coming home being a 4 hours social and then going to bed. So know we went to a random dinner theater. Unfortunately the food was horrible had some kind of pie which we couldn't figure out if the pie was either peaches or apples. Thats not a good thing. But the skit was really classic. A fun parody on spy movies from Bond to Austin Powers. After wards we got pie at Village Inn. We also are going to be going to see Evil Dead the Musical in Topeka and I'm definitely excited about that it's spoced to be really fun. That same day we will be driving to KC for the Ren Fest. Even more amazing then that kinda crazy randomness is that we booked a flight to Chicago and will be going to see Eddie izzard. She was over at my house late one night and we were talking about our mutual love for Eddie Izzard and I was like we should see when he's on tour. Oddly enough he was on tour just now but surely I thought this show in Chicago would be sold out. And this is the crazy fate part the tickets for that show went on sale the next morning at 10 and so there we were up at 10 in the morning buying tickets for Eddie izzard. So there you have it I am with Mackenzie on our way to Chicago pretty excited. :D Course it's in jan. That's going to be friggen amazing.

saintpepsi

These times they are a changing

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So been seeing this girl for a bit and enjoying her company for sure. Can't say if it will be going anywhere. but I have to admit i enjoy her company she's definitely into cuddling up n watching movies. Can't complain about that and she loves to read and learn and also pretty attractive not going to lie. Perks as well she's from Omaha which is where my brother lives so totally convenient road trip. So we will see I'm not going to want it to much because then it will fall to pieces cause thats just what happens.

In other news. Still working on trying to finish the multiple commissions I have. I was really hoping to be done with that big one from this summer. I will be trying to finish coloring all the ones I have already drawn so I don't have to feel like I'm putting off the coloring part. The picture you see above here is based off a character my brother designed by hand as a sculpture. Totally envious of those leet skills For sure. Work goes really well and yosakoi is gaining many new members. Alls well right now lets try and keep it that way :D

Speak and I will listen

Albert Schweitzer said, “In everyone's life, at some time, our inner fire goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being. We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit.”

I have had many experiences in my life and I rarely regret any of them. The ones I do regret involve hate. I hated my old preacher for many years for the things he did to my family and only recently forgave him and allowed myself to let that hate go. It was so relieving I cried on the spot. Hates a heavy thing to carry around with you and something I won't let myself deal with from now on.

Anyway recently this within this year anyway I have had the pleasure of working with a guy named Andre He was pretty shy at work at first really didn't open up to anyone and for some reason he choose me when I asked about his tattoos sense I knew a bit about the meaning behind them. Surprised that anyone else in this town would know anything about the Wicca Religion we started talking about our different beliefs and recently thanks to a lot of things I've been reading I have come into contact with an interesting shift in my own beliefs. Not the core things mind you but a realization that the powers that be may be very wide and of many different varieties. So you can never fully discount some one's beliefs because to believe in something anything can make it true. For example we as Christians ask others to believe in what we believe without a great deal of solid support albeit we find what we can to shift reason to our side. But in other belief settings there are powers that are equally unexplainable with completely different beliefs and gods behind them.

So today Andre gave me a rock ... one of those polished stones you know. I just kinda stared at it not really knowing what to say when he explained that it was his personal Anahata stone it was used for healing and to relieve stress in the body and soul. He wanted me to have it for my kindness to him. He also told me he had made me a dream pillow... much the same as a dream catcher with native American lore. I can imagine. Being a big fan of dreams and especially lucid dreaming I was eager to learn more about the dreaming realm. And if a pillow could ward off the dreams of evil looking to find safe harbor in my mind so be it. Now I don't know if what I felt was real or a projection through my body based on my brief belief in his belief system but I felt energy in the stone he gave me. Weird but make you wonder just what can come from true belief.

Christianity has through prayers cured incurable and often terminal patients and what what I know about Wicca its done similar things. I don't know all I know is that my kindness has effected a man's life and his life in turn is affecting mine. Truly a benevolent heart and a kind gesture can grant you access to the depths of the human soul far faster than bribery or false promises. Trust, caring and faith remains a key to the human heart. may it lead me to great places and may I never regret my experiences.

The curses and blessings of life.

Most people in this world strive to exceed excellence. I suppose I am the same but I must admit I'm usually content with the way my life goes. very relaxed not a lot of drama and with in my means. These last few weeks have been riddled with apathy, excitement, crushing financial blows, and random drama. So to start all this my mom whom is awesome sent me 800 bucks as a help you out in the future type of thing from surplus crop funds. That on top of the 1000 I got from a commission led me to get a new TV and surround sound system. And pay off a lot of my credit card debt all together at once. Got rid of one credit card. YAY! 2 more to go. Well right after all this getting ready to knock out another credit card with the money my mom sent me I got a bit of car trouble that came in the form of a Grand of damage... :'( So there went that 800 lucky for sure that my mom had just sent that money. Cherry's gone for a week thats kinda weird I haven't really gone that long without seeing her even if we aren't dating. She was due for a real adventure though. I have been somewhat apathetic this week mostly video games and art and tv Shows. i watched all of Season 2 of both burn notice and The Spectacular spiderman. These are both amazing shows that you all should check out.
Other than that still doing a bunch of commissions and really working on getting them done and upgrading my art in the process. Hence the picture up top one of my first successful waccom paintings of cthuhlu vs Hellboy hope you like it. Lastly getting caught in between a friendly fire end of relationship with two of your friends sucks. thats all bye now.

pepsi

Lonely Knights

It's nights like this when the world comes crashing down. When you do all you can to smile and laugh because there is no reason not to. When all the roads you have walked are seeming to be taking you places and all you can concentrate is that your walking them alone. It's been 3 months sense I broke up with cherry and it was a good break. It was a break up that should have happened I know that in the dark recesses of my mind. But there was comfort in having someone there you know. In being able to fall asleep and wake up and see the person you love next to you. And as I lay awake in bed waiting for the sun to rise and my eyes to fall based on need of sleep alone It all blossoms into loneliness. Tonight she asked me if there was anything she could do to help. Take me back I thought but didn't mean or really believe in. Knowing still the decision was solid. The worst part was our relationship blossomed to become even stronger and yes that's not a bad thing. But I stop and think why couldn't that have been the way the relationship itself worked. Why did it feel so stagnated by the reality of the future. The impending doom at the dead end.

I'm a romantic I always have been I put myself fully into any relationship and yet I live in a college town where girls are just now “finding” themselves trying to figure out what they want in life which makes them all the more appealing and yet all the more subjective to whim. The singles scene is over laden with girls looking for the solid guys but they have blinders on for guys that just want to party and get drunk Or on the other end of that spectrum are the girls who are career lead, “oh I have no time for relationships now how about a hook up.” No investment, not love. Just to follow the feeling of pleasure to remind ourselves that we can feel it before we move on to the next thrill. I love Manhattan I truly do it's close to my family all of whom I care for deeply and have been nothing if not the greatest support system in my life. But this week which I admit has been a down week for me. Most of my friends too busy to hang out or out fo town and myself to self annihilating to leave the comfort of my pencil and paper. I've created more art in this week than in the last 2 months. Pushing myself to excel at it.. To met my own expectations in my world. Relying on the Lord of dreams to offer me the sanctuary in the arms of the girls I have loved and Lord Morpheus has done his part well, I fault him not for the feelings of loneliness when I stretch out in the morning to grasp at the wisps of dreams lost. Content to let the world spin as I unravel yet another predictable day. I am not disillusioned that I feel scorn for myself or self worth I know I'm the handsome young man my mom loves, the hot and ready devilish entrepreneur that can fulfill a girls desires and the artistic mind to challenge myself and wow those around me. I know where I need to go and I plan on getting there.

But weeks like these where I watch crushes walk on by without the courage to tell them my hearts truth or steal away my own drama in a friends listening ear for fear of burdening them with my own seemingly mundane problems. Its all to short this existence but you need to feel the lows to love the highs; something I told cherry tonight when she offered her ear for my troubles. Its a mourning period I had set aside for a raining day not wanting anyone to see just how fragile this giant can be. I love my real friends those that will always be there for me through thick and thin... my family of course cherry, amber, Nathan, CJ and others down that path that shifts and swings with the unrelenting chaos of time. I don't even know what or who I want right now I just know I'm walking down the right path to get there. I wonder if other people and I'm sure they do go through similar bouts with their subconscious mind, whom has been oddly supportive as of late leading to a much greater surge of confidence but a much greater realization of my own responsibility. I couldn't talk to cherry tonight not like I would have liked and thank you CJ for being there to let me sit and mope on your couch while watching a ridiculous road trip movie. Sometimes the easiest answer is to watch a really dumb funny movie.

But for now no worries my friends for every low there is a high and I'm an optimist so be sure it's right there around the corner waiting to bring me from these dark depths. Sometimes you just have to be patient. Mhm had to rain tonight. I love the rain, absolutely love it but as far as a downer mood misrepresent it fails magnificently. Much love to you all and to all a good night.

Into the dreaming again

I was in the Dreaming realm again last night I had hoped to seek an audience with Ryan but these things are hard to time him being in another country with a different sleep schedule. I ended up instead in well it wasn't a nightmare in the whole of my life I never have remembered any more than like 3 of those. Morpheus has been good to me. But no this was more just an uncomfortable dream. Cherry and I were hanging out together and for some reason tweeker after tweeker kept coming in and just crowding us. I knew not where to go or what to do and all I wanted to do was just hang out with cherry and talk but they kept at us and finally they all departed and we were about to have a conversation when Karina a friend of mine called in the living plane. So I was whisked back to my reality just short of what ever the Dreaming wanted me to see. Funny how the things we want are always just out of reach in the Dreaming.

Speaking of the Endless I have nearly completed work on all of them only a few left to finish the group same with the Neverwhere crew. I have been in a huge Neil Gaiman and Terry Pratchet swing lately all be it I'm reading Children of Hurin by JR Tolkien. In other news---

The single life in all it's glory is just as obnoxious. I suppose it wouldn't be so if everyone around me didn't have spring fever. So many of my friends are either hooking up or acquiring new loved ones dear to them. I don't know its like I need to jump into the fray and lay claim to a girl before I even know if we are compatible. Then again I don't really want to be with someone else its that damnable spring fling fever. Gets under your skin turns men green with envy as I found out in a hot tube this weekend when a co worker got rather hostile verbally when I seemed to be gaining head way with a girl he was interested in. Far be it from me to know his every whim. That's why I like the way me and what seems to be my new best friend CJ interact we know when one or the other has a shot and does the proper thing and supports the other. Although now he's found himself a young girl to take his head from him. sigh... I need to be there for someone I'm a giver and without someone to give to well I spoil myself. whatever life has always been good to me I'm sure it will all come around again be it love or lust. It was a blast getting all dolled up last night to go to the speakeasy party. Check out my pics on facebook I looked good :D

Lastly, smoking is bad for you. That's what I've been told. Yellows your fingers and teeth, gives bad breath and oh yeah cancer. Lastly something most don't it permanently burns out this thing in your throat that allows flim to drain down your through resulting in a cough or smokers hack. So many reasons no to but on the other hand it encourages social interactions. It gets people outside. I can't think of how many times I have seen some of the most beautiful star filled skies because I stepped out to have a smoke. It encourages generosity. A smoker will always give away smokes unless it's the last one in case no one will actually accept it even if offered. It does fuel a sense of relaxation after a hard day or a sexual encounter. Generally, its good. However I think after these last few I'll be quiting to often do I smoke more than I should and don't feel 100% the next day. So wish me luck. I don't think I'm really addicted but addicts always say that. lol. Just need to remember to buy gum.

ps starting a new comic with some friends check out the first panel it looks like it will be a fun project.

Experiance

As we walk through this life we so often pass up the chance to truly experience moments with friends or families. We bait ourselves with excuses like I've got errands to run or things to do, or I don't feel like it and you stay at home and do what ever. It makes no sense to me. I deal with this a lot at home because my roommate constantly avoids going out and experiencing anything. Life is spoced to be one great experience and if we never engage in anything then aren't we wasting life. I'm not saying you should try and do everything anyone asks you to do but definitely with in reason. For instance I was spoced to hang out with my friend Nate last night but my other friends called me last sec to come hang out with them So I told Nate I needed to see them first by the time I got to Nate everyone else was just showing up. Worked out perfectly. Sometimes this catches me off guard I got to see my X the other night but it was right after work and I was super sweaty and smelly. Don't get me wrong I really enjoyed seeing her but I was definitely a little pungent for social activities and had wished I had taken a shower or brought a change of clothes right :d. In the end I just wanted to remind people to take the time to experience each other and not to always put things off till some other time. It will be worth it i promise. Don't always give yourself an excuse to leave early or even to not come.

pepsi

For the Moment

So summer is in full swing and by the gods we are lucky it's still raining I really do hate the heat. We have used it to our advantage lately I have been swimming 3 times which is 2 more time than last year lol. Starting with and after the bars a trip to a friends parent's house to swim in their out doors pool which was WAY cold. Could see your breath out that evening so yeah didn't stay in that one too long. The very next day we took off for what we call Mock Summer where we go out to this secret place at the lake and start a camp fire and just hang out and swim in the surprisingly warm lake water. This year got a a little crazy lol lots of skinny dipping. Over all huge success. Went on to a house party a few weeks after that that most of the people I work with were at and went swimming in their apartment pool that night I was quite intoxicated that night and so kinda got my clothes really wet. What can ya do.

But this all circles the point I was going to make which is never pass up experience. If you have the chance to interact with people and experience new things even if they are weird and you are unsure about it. Get out their and try it. I live with a guy who never leaves the house swear to god he works gets off work comes home sleeps then goes back to work. That is not a life! He says "He's just not a people person". Man I did something like that one year just stayed in all the time never interacted with people. It was one of the most depressing years of my life. I have been doing my best to get my roommate out there and experience things. You just HAVE to remember that if at all possible never pass up any experience no matter how weird it might seems. Unless it could land you in the emergency room or a drug rehabilitation center. No one wants that. I mean even if it's bad you'll have a great memory of it. Looking back even some bad memories turned out to be life changing events. Everything we do and every choice we make steers us in a new direction and ultimately crafts out life road. To you want to be a straight road from birth to death no detours. Man I don't

ConGRADulations.

I just found out I have a version of Gangstas Paradise in Korean lol how weird is that. In other news my friends are graduating again. I seem to always do these updates a week late. Oh well. My friends Nozomi, Saryinya, Jilliani, Chelsea and Ariana. My sister in law Priscilla, my cousin Peggy. All these people graduated and probably more that. Those are the ones I know about though. I went with my family to see the Masters Graduation sense that's where Priscilla was graduating from with a masters in Children's Lit. After that I ran around a lot saying congrats to all the people I knew who had graduated.

Then sprinted back out to my van and drove over to Priscilla's house for the after grad ceremony. She had made some amazing salsa... that's besides the point but it really was good :D. Her family decided to take us out for Harry's uptown made me dress up and everything and while I know I look damn good all dressed up I hate how tight ties can be around your neck. The food at Harry's was amazing it was the first time I had ever eaten there so I was super impressed and very thankful to the Vanderwhels for laying down moneys for it. I gave them 15 to cover my drink, dessert and tip i felt it was all I could do.

Later that night Cherry and I got super drunk with My Aunt and Uncle and peggy and Jared. It was fun and it was really good to get to hang out with family and party with them. Time seems to be passing faster as i get older so I'll treasure any time I get to spend with my family.

We were spoced to do Mock Summer that day but there was a lot of rain and a chance for a tornado so it got called off and rescheduled. I personally was kinda glad for this gives the lake a little time to warm up. Last yr it was Soooooooo cold. The next day even though i had to work in the evening I went to Ariana's grad party at her house. It was good to see Megan again and hang out with my friends family's. Always neat to meet the people responsible for who we are. Well that's about all working on a really big commission project so I'm going to get back to that now.

pepsi

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Wicked fun right?

So man I should have done this a while ago. Here goes. This update is about my trip to Omaha which i should have brought a camera for but didn't really take a whole lot of pictures took more with my phone I'll get those off sometime lol That aside I think it was last weekend I went off to Omaha for a Showing of the Broadway tour of Wicked. But first it was the weekend that most assuredly the best movie of the summer came out. Or at least the spring. Star Trek by JJ Abrams or however you spell his last name. Went to the midnight showing of that which was oddly at 9 oh well. After drenching myself in the awesomeness of that movie. I gave Cherry a call and she was at Mel's Tavern some band was playing so I figured why not go check them out. It was the CD release party for a band called pyschostick. This band was amazing and i don't ussually like metal music but their song just cracked me up. Well after the show they needed a place to stay so they basically crashed in my living room and aside from the crazy storm that night slept well. Having gotten 0 to no sleep that night I promptly got up early and went and gave plasma after hanging with Cherry for a bit and then it was off on a 3 hr road trip to omaha.
Keeping myself going with a steady stream of 5 hr energy drinks I managed to make it there without falling alseep. After getting there a little later than I meant to I met up with my parents and we all went to see Star Trek at the IMAX god lord that was an experiance I had to wait like 20 min before my eyes finally adjusted to the screen. Going back to stephen's dorm after that I got pulled over for speeding and given a ticket because the speed limit in Omaha is all sorts of wonky. But i was speeding and you can't argue what you were obviously doing.

The next day i made sure to sleep in as long as I could and then it was up and off to see Wicked this preformance was amazing to see live. I had heard all the music before but it just didn't do the production justice to see it all happening before you from the time clock dragon to the high flying wizard defying stunts of the leading green lady. All of it was definately worth it. i was sad that Cherry had to miss it. But she did win best kiss at the Manhattan TAP awards. So cheers to her. After the play we went out to eat but I just wasn't feeling it as far as staying in Omaha so I drove on home and met up with Cherry, Caitlin, Ariana, and Chelsea. Had a few at the bar laughed and went on home for a much needed rest that wasn't on a dorm couch.

All for now catch you again soon.

New Art

Chuck and Sara Marshel

Samus Justin baily

A wolrd with no shoes

Night time is when it all seems to come crashing down on you. The loneliness and the absence. The other night cherry told me how it feels like your living in a world with out shoes having known what it was like to wear shoes before. Sure you can do it but it's just not as comfortable and or easy. As odd a statement as that was it made total sense to me. We went for a drive that night and I took her out to observation point. It was sprinkling at the time and the rain was on and off. It was none the less perfect. We laughed, we cried we remembered all the times we had that we loved so much. We weighed our options and we leveled with each other. We held one another and we danced. We are as close as friends can be and really this is all for the better. Our relationship was coming between our friendship and we both knew that at this time we had an expiration date. It will go down as one of the most memorable times i have ever had with Cherry and I am picking that memory over the moment in her kitchen as our true break up. As the moment we dedicated ourselves to be there for one another and to always be open and honest. Sure I wish i could have taken her out to that spot sooner in a happier time but that night just felt right. That spot can be so calming and just seems to I don't know I just know it has power. I will miss the relationship we had the comfort of someone to hold at night. Things may never be the same but this is a new chapter in both our lives. As the gods write our parables we will stride further down our paths and be there to comfort and to call upon each other. I love Cherry and a part of me always will. Neither one of us wanted to leave that night we just wanted to stop and hold each other until everything just spun around us. With my freeze ray I'll Stop the world. With my freeze ray I'll find the time... time to find the words to tell you how... how you make me feel. Like a fool, kinda sick special needs... anyways. I love you.
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Time to decide what we really want.

It's a reality that's killing me. To love someone and know them so well that you know that until you both figure out who you want to be and where your priorities lay you may never truly be together. Cherry and I have broken up. It came to be over something so simple and yet ultimately so big. We realized we were starting to resent each other for aspects of each of our characteristics. So it seemed our relationship was hurting our friendship. It's times like that that make you stop and either work on it and come back or push through and further damage the relationship. We didn't want to tear ourselves anymore. We had a similar break earlier this yr and it only put a band-aid on certain things. I love Cherry so much and I know she loves me too. So we'll have to see how things play out in the future. She really needs to focus on her classes and I don't know what I want. Right now I just feel lost. I hope and pray that this will strengthen our friendship and maybe our relationship. I would rather have a true friendship though than a bitter relationship. I haven't talked to my last girlfriend sense she moved out. That's a relationship that ended badly and I refuse to let this one end the same. Cherries become my best friend and I don't want to lose that. She means the world to me.

Dance you fool

So I'm going through another apparent style change in art. Basically i just wanted to try something new and that something new was pretty much what you see above. I'm honing my craft so expect to see better rendering in the future. In non art news 13 months in just around the corner for Cherry and I and the day after that is Ariana's B-day were having a PJ party. Oh how we college kids love our theme parties. The big Japanese Festival will be this weekend too. where yosakoi will be preforming twice i believe. Really looking forward to seeing the story teller again. All these morning shifts are really starting to get to me I desperately need to sleep in for some reason I can't get to sleep at night I have been drawing like crazy; much to the horror of my hand which seems to be sore a lot lately. On a recent drawing I got to use these pens my mom got me for Christmas and they worked perfectly Had I not been in a rush i probably would have used them better but i just used the largest and made sure I worked the tip with the light pressure for thin lines instead of getting a smaller pen. Looking forward to posting the result. Next up Bowling with friends see you all next to the 9 pin ;)

I will get to wear that funny hat again.

Wow it's been quite a while sense I last did a journal. So lets see has there any dramatic change in my life that would warrant a new journal i ask myself aside to post new art. Well currently I'm going through all my music on my computer and getting rid of any I don't really like. Yeah not too epic.

Carlos the place I work closed down on Tuesday because a transformer blew up underground and we were without power for the first part of the day. That was pretty cool cause I didn't really have to work. Me and the rest of the managers and the main boss just sat outside and hung out for like 3 hrs waiting for the power to come back on.

My friend Caitlin turned 22 got a little drunk at her party luckily my GF was there to take good care of me. i mean i rarely get drunk so its always weird to me when it happens. I got to see a pre-screening of the New wolverine move. It was ok I really wish it had been a movie based souly on Deadpool. What can you do though. Those Hollywood types are dumb.

But I'd say most importantly is the fact that I will be graduating from MCC finally. Turns out all I have to do is change my major up and I will be ready to go. I won't have to take any classes or do any christian service I'll just walk across the stage and receive my diploma and that may also include a minor I still have to see about that. But how awesome is that. All this would not have been possible had it not been one for my own laziness because this is a new degree that only this Jan became available. But most importantly my GF Cherry who has very subtly pushed me to success. It's her that had me opt to become a supervisor at Carlos O Kellys, She has pushed me to be more professional in my art and dealing with people. She has convinced me to wear underwear more often and Now she has definitely prompted my return to scholastic. I was actually going to take classes to finish until they told me I was done lol. So here's to you my dear thanks for all the good things you bring about in my life. I know I know everyone around me things I basically am the luckiest guy ever. weird huh. What ever see you all later.

I have picked up a new DSi it's basically a mod killer. To stop all the pirateing of DS games. So i kept my old DS to ply and or try out games first and then I'll use the new one for the games I plan on playing alot. It also can access the net albeit not very well. low memory kinda sucks. It have a way cool camera feature. All in all it will come in really handy in the moment sense i ussually carry my DS and not a camera. I have ordered a new camera too thought. Its a new powershot

yosakoi

For yosakoi

Thus concluded one year

Hard to believe that it's been one whole year. Cherry i think was more amazed at this than I. It wasn't an unusually romantic nights. More relaxing than anything else. We started the day off by sleeping in. I tell you this is an amazing way to start any day. Afterward we roused ourselves and went off to rent a movie after deciding not to go to the theater. Feeling a bit hungry seeing as we had slept through both breakfast and lunch we had gone to one our favorite restaurants and of course had out favorite waitress and eat heartily. Feeling very full and very happy, we went back to my place and watched one of the three movies we had rented called Lean on Me. It had Morgan Freeman in it and was just a marvelous movie that was definitely all Morgan Freeman.
After that we got to hang out with a married couple named Dallas and Cat Love. Dallas being my roommate. We thought about playing Apples to Apples. But we ended up using the red cards as things to play charades. After that we thought about watching a movie with Dallas and Cat and Cherry said we should watch the one I rented. I really hadn't expected to watch that with any one but Nathen because its a guilty pleasure for me and him sense it's obviously a bad B movie. It was funny but definitely not something we should have watched, i give cherry mad props for actually staying with it for the whole movie lol. This movie being " My name is Bruce" with Bruce Campbell afterward to get that wonderful movie out of my GF's head we watched the office till we fell asleep. Perfect day :D Much love to my dearest Cherry and our one year mark.

What about Work

Working can be hell. Can't imagine how any job no matter what it is even if it's something you really wanted to do could be hell. Sometimes I feel working at what you want to do is almost worse.   Then you are expected to do what you love on a schedule.  For now art is what I love. I do commissions on the side for a little extra cash. This comes in super handy sometimes and others you end up getting stiffed not that it costs me anything but time.  This is still for the most part on my terms. I choose the time and I always give myself enough time to finish so nothing is to difficult and that way I'm wonderfully happy with it.  So i choose to be a supervisor at a wanna be Mexican restaurant... So many people say they want so badly to get out of their job, town, or what ever but to go where.  So long as i can do art for myself and get enough time to read I'm happy.  Pleased as punch i am.  The best part about where I work is the people i work with so much fun and you can always tell when someone just works and someone won't fit in all all.  I have never felt like I have wasted my life I really enjoy what i do because i do what I like and i do it for me.  I have many friends to share these times with, a love to hold, and a family to fall to whom i know will always be there and love me.  Life is intrinsically good.  I could be doing anything and it wouldn't matter so long as I'm happy.  Really that's what is truly important.  Sometimes it goes up others down but it's ok it all seems to work out in the end.  So here's to more wonderful experiences with my friends and family.

Dream journal big bang

It was as close a family as you would ever have and yet we all seemed to travel in many different vehicles. Always spreading out across a city when we got there to that it felt more like visiting each other when we left to run into each other. We were a talented group of performers and that's how we earned our way in the world. To explain the kind or performances we did I wouldn't call us a circus act but we had our own appeal. This evening was about my eyes witnessing something so beautiful and yet so destructive. The horror of the unknown and the unexpected. The day seemed like a jumble of craziness I and my brothers were getting ready for bed at the time and the weirdest thing was we looked out into the night sky and saw these two bright streaks of light in the distance like shooting starts. Here's where my mind throws me for a loop we all yell for our mother to come check out this amazing spectacle and when she gets there the streaks in the sky were all that was left. All of us were really excited to have seen such bright shooting stars. Until we heard the concussion blast. The worst part was we knew people in that part of the city. A bright inferno rose up into the sky so high that the night seemed to turn to day I remember looking at the sky thinking wow its nearly blue skies. The second object must have been smalled for the fiery cloud didn't match the first but our vehicles were rocked and blasted with debris. Altogether having seen tornado's and other natural disasters this one really kinda stunned me. Although that sense of dread flowed through me I was ok My family was still safe and I had them because in the end family is what matters.

I still woke up and nearly fell outa bed after having that dream though lol . Wordie

Shoulda listened

I have nearly been with Cherry for a yr and as that mark approaches I realize now that I have a head as think as steel sometimes. We have had our share of troubles and while she thinks she's to blame on many of them I have been recently learning that it might have something to do with me not listening. Sometimes, even when I am trying to be... well do things for her it could be things she doesn't want at all. Hell sometimes the best thing to do is just let things be and give some space. As I have looked at many relationships it has been said over and over again that it comes down to conversation and how well you can read your partner. No amount of sex, good times and or commonality can make up for a deaf ear. I am not stupid, nor am I unable to change. Especially, now that I have really started listening. Don't get me wrong I still screw this up. Sometimes, it can take a bit of time to understand when I need to really listen and when we are merely being playful. First off is tonality. When she wants me to really lets say; "let a subject drop" or do something she has asked. She'll adopt a different tone in her voice. This is something I would do well to memorize. Her eyes too. It takes a great deal of time to be able to read any one's eyes. But when I should be listening; my loves eyes change or at least it's very subtle. Small things like this and like Her entire countenance stiffening. These should all be bell ringers. Much like a man though I get my own idea and miss some of these blatant hints thrown my way and charge off head strong to do my own thing. This becomes exceedingly confusing when I get into this gotta fix it mode. If I do something wrong and I know it I get really determined to make whatever I did right by any means possible. Never even hearing the "never mind" or "it's ok" I have a tendency to blow things out of proportion. One of my lesser attributes I promise. You are helping me see the folly in such actions when easily not necessary. So I ask you my love to bear with me sometimes while I learn to better listen to you. "We," are important to me and I'll keep my senses on alert to better judge situations in the future so as to not fall victim to another situation I could have avoided had I just listened.

pepsi

Dearest February I will remember you fondly!

Wow Feb. Was quite a month. Lets see It marked the end of Cherry and I's break, The Anniversary of our first ever meeting the start of a new play for Cherry to be in, The arrival and subsequent hanging out I got to do with my brothers and mother, A super hero party, the bed, Cherry's Birthday, and our 11 month marker for being together. So lets see if I can blog a bit and do it all justice.

The end of the break well that was what it was it was really kind of un-spoken we just started hanging out again. I feel a few conversation lead to this but between the two of us we have really been doing well. Our relationship is really more passionate and caring than before and I do my best to give her the space and independence she needs and she allows me my creative times as well. Our Partnership is much more understood I think. Anyway on to much more delightful news.

Cherry and I first met at Ella house. While I would not consider it favorable for me romantically that night... it was none the less fortuitous that I came across her. She was as always beautiful. Sporadic and spontaneous in her own way. She had me puzzled to begin with a puzzle I hope to always work on and finish much later in life. Anyway I was the least of her concerns that night and we both being flirts did our fair share with any passing fancy and we both passed a fancy for each other and that was about all. Still it was by right our tale of origin. So we celebrated it. The party was fun I ended up comforting a friend who fell on ill times. But what can ya do. The party also turned out to a be a kinda second cast party for Cherry's play... Intimate Apparel. The first being at my place very impromptu the night before. That was also fun but with many less people. Both events ended well.

The next two things happened all at once. Chery's birthday party where she turned 22 and my family congregating in Manhattan. Quite epic indeed. My mother whose passion is buying cute and lovable cards for people made Cherry's work day with a card and we had pizza. Taking the night off souly for her we went out to the bars and hung out for a while with after hours events at our friends house. We had a blast and it was good to get us all together again our work schedules have been keeping us apart lately. The next day I spent mostly with my brother Stephen, his friend Andrew and GF Karlynn. Where I missed him falling down a hill and busting up his whole body trying to long board. What ever were Mizells the scars on our body tell the story of our life lol. Later that day I had my now crippled brother help me get a new bed. Something I have needed to do for ohhhhhhhh 7 yrs lol. Mine was... well... I kinda slept on the floor. I got a decent deal on a bed and have now slept very well sense. Anyway the getting it home was the most interesting part as the Wind Gods decided to play games with it.

That Monday was our 11 month Sadly we barely got to hang out due to scheduled conflicts but the time we did spend together was good we actually spent it putting together costumes for The Super hero night at Auntie Mae's Parlor. Good lord that was a blast we even got my roommates Nate and Dallas out of the house. Cherry and I of course stayed home ;) too much excitement you see. But two dashing super hero types that looked a lot like us were seeing having a blast Clod and Frizz.

Lastly I would like to make a special note on something that has become a Thursday habit for my GF and I. We get some wine, she picks out an interesting book... although I'm picking next time lol. And we coozie up to a roaring fire, drink a little wine, and take turns reading to each other in a dimly lit room. This as fast become one of my favorite nights of the week based primarily on this one event. Seems it will always be the small simple times I spend with my love that will matter the most I hope this new tradition will continue as long as we can.

Well wow that was way to much i should update here more often See you all next time.