So it's been a long while sense I wrote out some kinda random drival to those of you whom pass this blog by. Turns out not only have I become a poet, painter, and artist in my life. Now I'll be a paid writer for a trendy blog http://www.talknerdytomelover.com/ So far I've put up two pieces but that's just the start. On top of that I've been working with alot of really fun people in the movie industry and life just seems to be taking a wonderful turn. Still looking for that girl but even in that venue the skies seem to be clearing. Sorry for the lack of updates here. I have been working on alot of commissions, written pieces, poems and this final class I have to take to graduate. I'm sure i'll post more soon :)

New friends new failings

Been a while sense I posted been working on a new big commission and another side project for some of the first fan art for So I hit it with my Axe. I have recently made friends with Satine Phoenix didn't realize she was a porn star when I met her just thought she was an artist and model lol She's wicked cool though just got a book of her art published something I would love to have done with either my art or poetry or both. :) Same with my friend Danny he's got a book coming out too LMS. Seems fortune smiles on friends of me lol. Poetry has been really kind to me lately seem to be gathering a bit of a fan base lol. Wish i could gather it via the web. Went on a little trip to San Francisco Got to see the beautiful Amber finally. Been friends so long I was surprised I hadn't made the trek to see her sooner. It was definitely one of the high moments of an already fantastic trip. Got to see the Golden gate bridge and I went to Japan town and China town. Hell because of us they will be starting a new Yosakoi Festival in San Francisco how god damn epic is that. So needless to say life has been treating me good. Aside from some horrible cold I got a while ago put me out of commission for almost two weeks. Seriously I have never felt so dead to the world. I hate being without my ridiculous amounts of energy makes me feel so unproductive course apathy is never really suited me. but other than that just feeling kinda lonely feel like a need a girl real bad. Course thats the only time you can't find one is when you're looking for one lol. So best of luck to me.

Poety SLAM!

So hey all you cool cats n kitties. So went and signed up my crappy poetry for a poetry slam. That for all you people who were like me and had no idea what it is... IS a scored poetry match where each poet is awarded points based on presentation and poetry and the like. So here I was doing my kinda funny poems and tryng to get the crowd all riled up for me http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r26VtWxGRLw Crazy as it was apparently I was one of the best. I was going up against a national Slam poet so really i figured as most would that their was no way to get first so I assumed with that place taken I was left with little chance of placing between the 9 of us competing. Then outa no where I was called out as second place and up against a slam poet I just assumed that was first. Seriously hes way above any of us poems wise. Pretty much made my week.

A week thats been surprisingly hectic. I had a Valentines party on Sat. That was great fun even though i got a little emotional at it cause it was Cherry and I's 2 yr Anniversary of meeting and it reminded me she would be leaving soon. Sunday was a relaxing day nothing to crazy. Monday was of course the poetry slam. WOooo!!! Then Tuesday was the ever awesome Auntie Mae's hero and villains party I dressed up as the green lantern even though people said i kinda looked like a ninja turtle I still had a blast. Wed me n Cherry went out to our fav restaurant and had some good eats and then watch a movie that was basically the story of our life except with a happy ending lol and then tonight it was my friend sondra's B-day party went out to Finns. Love that bar. But I was glad I was her DD got to hold her while she cried for the loss of her Grandpa. Was glad i could be there for her. So this weekend I'm heading to Naka Kon to preform Yosakoi then after hitting up KC to party for Cherries B-day then Sunday sleeping till 5 in the afternoon lol.

That's about all peace my friends

Poetry Night

Had another go at Poetry night tonight at Auntie Maes. Huge success I really love getting up there and reading and just a new venue for my creative side. I fell that drawing while good is just one way i can be artistic. This is a whole new level of really fun creative sides. Here is a poem that I read tonight.

It feels good doesn't it

That sweet release as you exhale

A taste of poison lingers on your lips

It's not something you should do

Its something you choose to do to relax

With tendrils snaking away from your mouth

Someone besides you coughs

Sure glad they aren't smoking with that nasty cough

I'd offer you one up to the last on in my pack

You've had a hard day you deserve this sweet release

The moment of quite contemplation in the serenity of the outdoors

or a time to catch up with a loved one of meet a new friend

It is of course the perfect seaway to introductions

Got a light, why don't I... well those things are like sunglasses

Ya lose them all over until you decide you quite

Then they pop up like weeds in suburban lawns

Embers fading as the wind carry's your remnants off into the distance

Sure I can quite but why would I

I only know I'll smoke again the next time I get drunk

and why give up this glorious comeradery

to be the solitary guard of purses and half filled mugs

Wondering just what juicy conversation your missing out on

No thank you I'll brave the cold or the ridiculous heat

I'll drive with my window down or only slightly cracked

I'll exhale deeply the left over passion pulled through a filter

and bask in your beauty as this transparent dragon creeps over your nakid body

Days are made better if for but a moment

Brought to a whole with ourselves allowing inward contemplation

As we all stand and prepare for that age old contest

THE FLICK... and as it summersalts away we sigh

back into maes and leaving the three people who were smoking American spirits

Back to our beer, back to our problems, back to life

Content to wait a few healthy hrs before we can swim through the clouds again

There I was mic right in front of me and a group of people friends and strangers alike wrapped in attention waiting for my words. It was an amazing feeling. Anjana even showed up this time to hear me and our friend Mark read. Got to admit i got a crush on that girl. Sad she's moving hopefully not to far away but still never any fun to lose the ones you love.

I still have a head cold its getting to be annoying I can't stop coughing and its giving me headaches. but hey what can you do. I have been working a ton ridiculous hrs with overtime every week. I mean the pay is great so it's hard to complain but I long for those days when i had free time you know. Right now i'm balancing work, yosakoi, art, and a social life and trying to find the right girl while doing all that is a sad testament to why people spend so long trying to fall in love. Like I said anjana needs to stay and fall madly in love with me lol. Till that happens well I'll keep my eyes open in this town the current population changes so often you get a constant stream of 18 - 22 yr olds. Kinda annoying when the girl you're looking for should be at least 21 or older right. But, we never now where love will find us. maybe I could take a cue from Cherry and just try n hook up use that fleeting romance of the moment. but, that's just not me i gotta roll with the real thing. Well till a new chapter you all have a good one.

Pepsi

Chicago

Well i went off to chicago and it was i must admit a blast, luckily the weather was much warmer and so beautiful. The weather in kansas on the way up there was crazy though. The girls mother that i was taking up there was pretty worried we would get stuck there. Not such luck though although we did have quite the switch around with hotels and the like. Not to mention I had to mod the whole trip because the first girl I was going to take got sick with mono and strep. So obviously she couldn't go but expedia was super cool and comped me for her ticket. The flight was easy no difficulties on taking off but when we landed apparently another flight had caught on fire or something so we couldn't leave out plane for an hr. i did get a book finished then though, Neil Gaimans Interworld. Its a fantastic read and i recommend it :D. We get there and find out that the hotel i got is way out in the boonies. By the boonies i mean on the complete opposite side of the city in the suburbs High north when the concert was in the deep south.

Well Had to change up hotels once again expedia helped me out there with still alot of confusion it wasn't until we got to the second hotel that we were trying to book that a really cool hotel manager sat us down explained a lot of Chicago to us and booked us in the merchant market. Now we hoped the trains and took off towards the merchant mart and it was a good long ways away so thank good for cheap public transfer in chicago cause cabs are expensive. But we eventually made it to the merchant mart in the heart of downtown chicago and tooled around in the shops and stores. Found a book store that was going out of business and made sure to pick up ever Neil Gaiman book they had and I didn't not to mention a Micheal Crighton book that they found at his place after his death fully complete. excited to read that. Finally made it to our hotel which was i admit more expensive but wow was it amazing. They had a sky bar that I ended up spending most of my time at over the trip.

Checked into our room had two marvelously big beds, just a very pretty room and we relaxed. i really wanted to check out the sky bar and Meredith said she needed to get ready to i took off to sit and relax with a martini in a sky bar. First of in a really expensive bar martinis are very expensive and had it not been for a random girl asking me to take part in a free very old scotch tasting i would have felt I spent too much there. After the martini I ordered Japanese beers and Guinness. Their Guinness was an elixar of the gods though soooooo good. So I sat there looking out over a beautiful city and reading my second book. Odd and the frost giants. It's a very short book and I polished it off that evening. Meredith came down and we grabbed a cab to go see eddie izzard Who was just as funny as he always is. I laughed until my face hurt from smiling. And I got to sit on the floor where Micheal Jordan had become a legend. Eddie's skit was very british and I'm used to that I have lived with a brit and watch alot of britsh tv. When I showed my roomate later he couldn't catch half the jokes. But in the moment they were very spot on. Very Izzard. Took a bus and a train back after the show because the cabs were charging rediculous amount of money to get out of the bad part of chicago went back to the sky bar and ordered a deep dish pizza to be delivered. After filling our bellies we decided to hit the hay and look forward to our adventours tommorrow.

After sleeping in we got up and took a trip over to the Chicago institute of art really made me wonder about getting into art school again. But i picked up an application fro my brothers who i believe will do great things in the world of art. Then we took off into the city to check out all the sites. While chicago was beautiful that day nothing in downtown was open. It was really weird all the shops were closed down and had signs saying only open on the weekdays. Lesson learned for the next trip i take out this way. So without any shops to duck into we ate at a subway. Then took the trains back to the Airport where my tickets were once again changed for an earlier flight. I swear i made a ridiculous amount of changes to my itinerary. Made it back to KC alright and then back to Manhattan. Not bad weather to worry about or nothing. When I got back i immediately picked cherry up and went to a party. Bad idea i had already worked a ton that week and topping that off with a long distance trip and severe lack of sleep i was not the life of the party to say the least. Luckily I crashed hard that night and didn't wake up till late the next day ready to go to work again. returning to normal life and well thus the story goes.

So angry i could spit

I am a Christian, I believe in a good and loving god, but I find it really hard to be around other Christians more often than not because there is a lot of hate in those circles. When I went to MCC as a christian college i had hoped to be readily accepted but I was not. not by the general student pop they all separated in to high school circles of preps, jocks, super holy kids, and rebellious kids. There I was with a few friends but not really any cement friends to call my own in fact a rarely talk to any of my student peers from MCC. It wasn't until i ran into a local group of wiccans and pagans that i felt truly accepted. They accepted me as a christian with my beliefs and didn't judge me. Just loved me for who I was something I rarely see christian groups do. I think it has to do with all these rules Christians put forth . Sure there are rules for all kinds of things but some of those rules have to be followed or you are ostracized. For instance no sex before marriage but I know almost all my christian friends had sex before I did in fact they would fool around at church events. So i guess that must have been ok so long as you can keep it a secret. In fact its come down to secret keeping more than anything if you did something bad and feel guilty you can't talk to other Christians about it because you will be judged by your peers. It's this type of reactionism that drove me away from the church. Back in the day my GF was living with me and no as gods my witness we did not have sex but because she was living with me and i didn't hide that fact my church took my scholarship away. My family stood by me and i think them for that and view them as true Christians able to accept me for whom i am and love me without judging. My mother and father have been most instrumental in raising me to love others no matter who they are or what they have done.

I don't lie anymore, i don't see the point and I hate secrets, I will keep a secret but as for my life I will tell you the truth if you ask me. this has been at times both convenient because people know i don't lie and very inconvenient for other people who thought something we did together was confidential. lol Oh its gotten me into a few fixes. Altogether though its been wonderful. Now i haven't had to face the ugly head of the obsessively hateful christian right in a while and that's saying something because of the siding with the right politically and i firmly believe that churches should stay out of politics. So because i respect and love my dad i try and stop myself from ranting about the FAR right. But recently i found out about something so disastrously evil that it made my skin crawl. Three evangelists went to Uganda to speak out against being gay. WHY!?! what happened to the word of Christ's love. What happened to God salvation. Why are they spreading messages of hate and fear mongering. Due to these threes interference in Uganda a bill was proposed to execute any person who was found to be gay. Women and men there had already been overly abused for it but now they were to be executed. All because of some hateful propaganda spread by followers of "god" This is not what it means to be Christians and it is not our right to judge other and especially to dispose the assumed will of our lord on them. Some of my best and dearest friends are gay in fact one is looking to go to Africa in the peace core. Could you imagine how i would feel if he was executed for his sexual orientation because of what these three instigated. it turns my stomach to see the hate that boils away in the hearts of Christians everywhere for gays. God loves them too. The verses these groups use to support their claims to biblical hatred come from the old testament which were laws imposed by the leaders of the time to coral the misdeeds of the people and were then put null n void when Christ came. Gave use the true rule to live by. Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. Would you like it if gays were in the majority and forced laws not allowing heterosexuals to get married, or went about attempting to kill people just because they loved the opposite sex. Think about it from the opposite side of the table here folks. This is wrong and we as Christians are not called to HATE, but to love and accept and allow God to be the final say in these matters and if he indeed finds them unholy well then it's on him because I will continue to love my friends no matter their sexual preference, race, or religion. That's what i am called to do by my creator. Hate is just to much work and way to hard to get rid of. Remember back to that story of how my church kicked me to the curb. Well that was one of the first times i felt hate for someone else and I held onto that hatred for many years. It wasn't until i let it go that i was able to forgive and forget. PS gay marriage wont ruin the sanctity of marriage that's ridiculous, its a love act where two people are commeting to each other for life. sigh... sometimes i hurt for people victimized by others who rationalize things with God's approval.