Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Who we are, whom we've become

I was raised to believe in being a good person... Some people say that there are so many things that affect whom we are as people. Things that cultivate us to become whom we are. The way we act the way; the way we react to situations. I would like to take the moment to say that I have not been subject to anything overly traumatic in my life aside from normal life situations. Deaths of friends and family, rejection and betrayal, stress and loneliness. Through it all I think I kept my head and I want to truly thank my Parents for bringing me up to see the cup half full... To see the good in situations no matter how glum. To morn when you need to and not to feel ashamed for it. They were reason enough to credit for whom I've become. I won't say those life lessons learned at a personal cost to me did not play a part. But I just wanted to thank the people that I think truly helped me develop. My family is insanely important to me. I know most of you go through periods where you may find parents to be a burden... too overbearing, or whatever your grief with them. But if they are good parents whom care and are not abusive then thank what ever god you serve for your undeniable luck at having someone whom loves you unconditionally and will stand by you and tell you the truth even when you are making an ass of yourself. I look for similar qualities in my friends and equally so in my Girlfriend. She truly knew some serious bad times. Things I could never fathom nor even empathize with. But still she remains a stable and wonderfully caring individual. While things may not have always been perfect in her family from what I know of her and her mother I see alot of her mothers caring and strength in her. She's got another mother in a very real if not biological sense and after meeting her as well I see where she gathers more of herself. I would love to thank both family's for the roles they played in making her so mysteriously caring and nonjudgmental. Something I know I struggle with. I tend to judge all too often on first appearance or even stereo type based on looks. I often end up kicking myself for such aversions to common sense. Not Cherry, while she may still trust her gut if she's seriously creeped I find myself always admiring her patience and understanding with some I might find to be questionable in my own mind. She looks past all that to the heart and dare I say sees the good. Some people look up to world leaders, booming business minds, super intellectuals but the truth is I will always follow happiness... just enjoying life and to truly do that you need to let preconceived notions fall away like dust in the wind. I admire Cherry for being so good at seeing us for who we are. I hope to see the soul behind the face, to delight in the reality of the individual like she does... Just another reason to trust and love her. Without this whimsical ability she has I doubt she would have been quick to accept my hand. I will never underestimate the value of her heart's eye.
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Now playing:
Regina Spektor - Buildings
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Monday, May 26, 2008

Something wonderful to wake up to


Recently, I had my two month anniversary with Cherry even though an anniversary means a year. That aside it's been two months and thinking back on how fast and spontaneously we fell together I regret absolutely nothing. This has been a dream played forth in reality. I've found out that she was rarely treated to any romantic notions as she has told me many of my actions and things I felt would be common place in a relationship are all new to her. Getting to see her eyes light up about the little things is absolutely delightful. Really when it comes right down to it... the little things are what we will always remember best. I know our relationship is still in its infancy but I really do love her. We went out to the beach a while back for something she had dubbed Mock Summer. We got to roast marshmallows and make smoores and go swimming in water so cold it felt like the northern Atlantic... but the chill of the water only drew us closer. It's telling stories and listening to them; reliving moments in her life and mine through new eyes. Just this morning for this Blog's namesake after a late night of watching Boston Legal and my roommate falling asleep in my bed forcing me to crash out on the couch in the living room. I was woken up to the gentle touch of the girl I love; which was both surprising and comforting. Surprising, because she doesn't have a car and she was spoced to be at work. Equally comforting because surprise aside I fell even more in love in that moment. These are the moments we will remember for a lifetime and I look forward creating so many more... I'm so glad I'm in love and have someone to love. Today will be a good day weather aside... a very good day.

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Now playing: Copeland - When Paula Sparks
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Thursday, May 15, 2008

The Crossing of Titans


So I come from a family that has had many interesting tales to be told. I have a father that has always encouraged us in our imagination and the pursuit of our dreams. A mother whom raised five boys and should be worshiped for this alone but to further follow that up by being exceptionally understanding and always loving and supportive even when things were difficult. That means the world to me especially when they have stood by us boys when the odds seemed against us and believed in us. I think this above all has lead me to truly trust and love my parents. When things that any normal child would be ashamed to tell their parents come up I don't even think to lie. I trust that they will understand even if they don't always agree and better yet are not afraid to share their opinions with me even though it might be controversial or lead to a brief skirmish. Next in line is my brother Aaron a true noble saint in an age when chivalry is dead. Though times have been hard lately and I think it has changed him. I will always see that fine upstanding man that I respect and admire. He has always been someone I look up to. I love him and will always treasure his advice and or company. Stephen whom seems to be more akin to a musical member of my family and just as nutsy as I am always has me smiling and he has a way of just lighting up a room. A true story teller i miss him just as much as I do my mom dad and the twins. David a blossoming artist is really becoming his own man and I can't wait to see what he becomes. Jacob a little more of a rascal and equally artistic is going somewhere and I want to meet him there and share in what ever accomplishments he has. I used to call them Twins and or the twin. This weekend I really wanted to call them by their names for they are truly their own men.

Well thats a run down of the family and this weekend I was blessed to get to spend time with them especially on Mothersday. Like I said this is a woman whom needs to be revered. They got to meet my Girlfriends parents... The great clash of titans the thing most people fear above all. How will they match up. Although Jazzy meet them separately but was loved for her soft tender side and yet playful ambitions to topple her sister in wit. And as always my dear Cherry she just beamed and I hope my parents saw the passion and conviction in our relationship. Later they got to meet the rest of the Sharp family I think my mom and Cherry's mom are alot alike from what I know of Cherry's mom she is an emboldened woman set on a path that involves her daughters and Wayne a musician whom I think may have started off a little cold to this unfamiliar situation but warmed up soon at the sight of my family's own embrace of them. All in all it went very well.

Monday ... wow well Monday the art night was in full swing and boy did people show up I had a full house which only grew exponentially when Cigar night started. We had a blast and i have been working on a rather large project with my friend Keegan which i put alot of work on that night. other than that and a few video games the night was normal.

Tuesday - I finished up a commission for the adult circus which got me about 150 dollars more than I thought it would. Time to rejoice for sure. i think I'll get myself Wii Fit, a few games off Wii Ware and pay off some debt yay.

Wednesday- After plasma I picked up Cherry and me and her sister went out to the beach. i stepped on something that assumed i wasn't hip until i had a foot piercing. On the plus side I got to use the first aid kit in my car which I now hold more respect for. On the negative I realize hiking up a mile with a hole in your foot sucks. After that we got to have BBQ at Cherry's parent's house and delighted in a story told by them of an epic detective bit they got to play out and solve. Then I dropped off Cherry and went home and had roomate time where me and Nate watched Akira's movie Yojimbo. Truly a classic and of course my Doctor Who. Now it's time for bed and not a moment too soon I'm beat. See you all later :D

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Now playing: Jim Sturgess - I've Just Seen A Face
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Friday, May 9, 2008

Behind Me

If asked what was behind me right now. I could name many things without looking. Literally, books from my years at school, a few anime toys, a couch that should be way more comfy than it is, My makeshift bed made of sleeping bags and comforters, a stuffed animal i think. pictures from some of my favorite artists and my DS with a slight imperfection in it's screen which kinda urks me but what can you do right? Figuratively relationships ended, life choices that have lead to joys and pains, and victories and mistakes a plenty. Most importantly right now there is a girl. She's fast asleep and if not probably mad at me for keeping her up or even disturbing her. ;) She's something else for sure. I have been very happy as of late. Could be a sudden surge of commissions. Could even be the good times I've had with family and friends. But the last month and a half have just blown me away. Life is new to me and I have been given new eyes to view it through. This relationship is truly a breath of fresh air and for a guy my size to be taken completely off my feet as has happened. Well its just intense. She lays there completely content dreaming of wild intangible things and all I can do is love it for even in sleep I still love spending time with her. I'm kind of a night person so going to bed early is a little odd for me but even I have been turning in more often. The effects another person in your life can have on you lol. After a long conversation I had with my mother the other day whom confided in me that she had been praying for the right girl to come into my life. Well I thank God her prayer was answered. She's a treasure. Clever, witty and slightly quirky in a very good way. She's a cute crazy, a whirlwind of whimsical transitions, and more often than not spontaneously romantic. She is stunning to look upon and more than seven or eight times I have heard random strangers tell her just how beautiful she is and what can i do but agree. To see her eyes light up demands a smile from me and usually a smile in return is granted and that smile is as refreshing as a sweet breeze on a hot day. I delight in our passion and always enjoy the long talks we have about all sorts of things some important and others quite inconsequential. I have seldom been as content as I am just to hold or be held by her. I can't wait to see how this relationship will grow, what new adventures we will have and what treasures we will learn about each other. Still she sleeps... silently surrendering to a waking life and soon I will join her in my own adaptations of a dream scape. I hope you all have the pleasure of meeting her someday and seeing that things I have. For now I'll sleep and dream of Cherry. My partner, my friend, my desire.

-saintpesi

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Cinco de fivo

What a wonderful weekend I had the absolute pleasure of getting to see Iron Man with my GF/partner Cherry it was a masterful movie and she loved it as much as I did. I think my favorite part was either when he went back to take out the weapons dealers or when he was testing the flight part at 10%. Good gods i laughed so hard.

Saturday aside from work was uneventful till late that night after I let my roommate Nate take out one of Cherry's friends without me being there which I think allowed him to be much more relaxed. I stayed around the house and played Mario Kart with my friend Nathan which was great but I missed my girl. So when she decided to go off to a party how could I refuse. So i got to hang out with her till like 5 in the morning with the crazy antics of some friends of ours and our horrible pictionary skills at that hour.

Sunday brought about the sudden need for Cherry to study so I let her be for the day only bugged her a bit after work. I did help my friend Jimbo move his sister and that left him with a rather large wet spot on his pants from fish water lol. I think I might be a bit of a distraction for her sometimes.

Monday after work I nabbed Cherry and off we went to the Grand Ol Trunk this fantastic Twice used store. I found some great shoes with a big ol buckle lol just ask Cheryy I was super stoked about them but my eyes really lit up when I got to see Cherry in this beautiful dark blue dress I really want to find a reason to have a fancy dress party, take her to Harry's or something just to see her in that dress again... Words fail me when i try and think of a way to describe how great she looked. Better still prior to the dress she was dressed up in this really cute number. The one that dropped my jaw when we first met. She looked good all day long. We went to a Cinco de mayo BBQ after the trunk. Cherry made her tastetastic guwac(sp). I mean I like to think all of my stirring helped make it just that much special but either way it was a treat. We took off after some good times and good eats. Back to my house for art night which no one showed up for... sigh. But we have added something to art night and thats a cigar and old drink night. So we all were to bring cigars and some kinda old man drink. I got Jamison best whiskey out there and I don't even like whiskey I'm a rum man. But we all just kinda hung out and BSed the night away. Cherry turned in early and rightfully so with a couple of finals the next day. I went and spent some time with her before she feel asleep. It was wonderful I must admit most of my favorite times with her are just laying there talking in each others arms.

Tuesday was just a normal Tuesday I worked on commissions, got some stuff done for Yosakoi and scheduled my car for a check up. Got a good dose of Cherry after work which I so needed york was... Work.

Thursday, May 1, 2008

Meeting the other Parents


So tonight I had the absolute pleasure of getting to meet Cherry's kinda other mom and dad Torry Dickenson and Robert Shaffer. A lady that took Cherry in during a hard time in her life and let me tell you these people are nothing but love. It's one of those things that really makes you remember why life on this planet is so wonderful. We also got to meet alot of new people and swap stories and tall tales. I found myself talking at length with a professor from K-state I think. In anycase it was a really good conversation I felt a little akward because Cherry apparently gets a little nervous around new people. Sometimes through the night I wish I paid her more attention than I did but these are regrets that will be ammended in the future. My favorite part in the night was when this teacher I believe his name was Marque told me he was born in 1981... the same year I was I know crazy huh. I stopped talking looked at Cherry and sais "Man compared to him I feel like I've achieved so little." Then went back into our conversation now Marque clark didn't break stride in fact he didn't even notice my pause and Cherry had this to die for smile spread across her face and told me it was like when you're at a play and someone from the cast stepps aside and says something to the audiance that the characters int he play can't hear. Just another wonderful moment with Cherry that reminds me how wonderful she is. :D Well I'm super excited about Iron Man tommarrow see you all there.
Latest art is Harley Quinn from BATMAN.