One Year.

Well it's been one year sense I first laid eyes on Cherry. It was of course at an Ella house Anti- Valentines day party. I had been going to parties at ella for... Wow! 2 years at that point I think Hell! I knew them before they even moved to ella. I meet Holly on DA when she was still engaged to Jimbo. This night was something special for me and I look back on it fondly. I hadn't expected to fall for anyone. I think at that point I had given up trying to find a partner. Ussually, that's when these things happen. Not that our relationship blossomed right then. There was I must say a spark though. Off hand I spoke to her a few times she was new and exciting to the ella scene. With hair untamed and wild; easily a characteristic shared by her whole spirit. Still shared I might add. She loved to dance and spin and sing and at one point fell into my lap on the comfy couch in their basement. We just kinda cuddled up there together. Started talking more and I was drawn to her she was so intoxicating. I have never been a big drinker but my head was spinning with the attention from this new girl. She told me her name was Candy. Thinking back... a fake alias was just another perk; had we not been interupted I truly believe we would have ended up at least kissing that night. What would that have changed for how the rest of our relationship went. Sometimes I wonder. However, it grew late and I had to work the following day so I bid them all farewell except for the mysterious candy and went on my way. She too had disapeared. When I got home i set to find the girl who stole my breath away. Finding not Candy in the parties Attending list but Chay Rae while I was sure she told me her name was Candy the picture didn't lie and her hair was un mistakably hers. So I added her on Facebook and sent her a message regretting that I had not said a proper goodbye to her. After a bit a surprised reply in that I had found her and she wished I hadn't left so early she had wanted to give me a goodnight kiss. Well my crush jumped up a few notches after that for sure. It has been an interesting trek after that sprinkled with a bit of perserverance, friendly drama, and me playing a tride and true gentleman until on a sunny Easter day she would say yes to my question of relationship. Wow! One year I have known my wonderful Cherry and that's one year I'll admit was very well spent. She's changed my life and I think the world of her. Even though she thinks I'm crazy for loving her the way I do. She is and will always be worth it. Here's to us my love one year sense we first met.

How we know all of you

How I see you...

Who are you?

You are everyone I have ever met.

I see you for who you chose to show me.

I understand this is the only way to know you at first.

A mask to test the water and see if it's luke warm.

The more I get to know you the deeper my sight becomes.

I see past the careful form fitting face you adopted for this situation.

New facets arise and surface with remarkable clarity.

Sometimes, you aren't someone I want to know; your soul reaks of hate.

Other times you are surprisingly fun. A shining light you only show those closest too you.

You are everything you want me to see.

You dance in a whirlwind of colors and distracting gestures.

You are shy, out going, boisterous, rude, benevolent, cruel, loving, and mysterious.

Until you show me who you really are how can I truly know you.

You show your self unconsciously sometimes; a wince or a nod betray your true feelings.

A smile can say many things you know, and your eyes even more.

You are my friend and foe.

You are my heroe and my villian.

You are everyone I know.

You are everything i know.

I don't know if I would call this a poem, kinda feels like one. I was just thinking about all my friends and people I know and how well I know them. Some could have me easily fooled others I have come to know far to close for them to lie to me. It's strange sometimes to finally break that barrier we all put up, that mask we show the world. The front we allow others to see without letting our true selves out thinking them to frail. The worst is when you finally understand that someone you have known for a decent length of time is a total stranger. I am happy to have been allowed into a trust with Cherry getting to know her more is a new adventure and I relish the experience. She is blossoming before me her many facets only deepening my affections for her. Although sometimes confusing and disorienting I have strived to always see her side of things and understand her better. This is the nature of any relationship. To know someone better; I wonder to all of you out there how well do I really know you. Which of your many masks do you show me or am I so privileged to see the real you. I consider it an honor if that's the face I truly see. It's never easy releasing the control we have to show others the self we want them to see. Sometimes, ultimately necessary though. To all my friends I love you all and thank you so much for allowing me to know you better. To those who flaunt their masks so rigid and formless before me the frosting on a rotting cake, soul filled with disdain and hate. You await the hammer it will crack your visage soon enough and what will you be left with but the now empty shell you hid from the world.

Intimate Apparel

So I went to the opening night of Cherry's Play Intimate Apparel, The characters in this play really shown. Their talents clearly visible with their portrayals. Obviously I was focused on my love the lead. Her whimsical and yet reserved nature causing me to smile often and yet hurt even more for her when she is cast aside by the man that should love her more than any. It was a beautiful emotional ride. Highs and lows, happy moments and moments of ghastly loss. You see whom her real friends turn out to be and whom she can truly trust. They have her all bundled up in a pretty large dress for the majority of the play which is all the more amazing when it is shed for a moment to reveal her bodies true beauty hiding secretively beneath. The different levels of her character are shown with how she interacts with each of the characters. With Mr Marks whom is very reserved and religiously not allowed to touch her she feels a forbidden fruit esq bond. And they share similar affinities for fabric, With the upper class white lady played by my friend Ashley Kings she feels almost slavish yet still goes to her for help with the letters. Her land lady and mother figure shines with the voice of reason for the play but how often love can be blinding, and her best friend the harlot that she designs her intimate apparel for truly show how she wouldn't judge a friend no matter what she does for a living. Although thanks to the presence of George the new man in her life her would is thrown Topsy turvy her friends and confidants all seem to fail at the wrong times and she gives up everything for the hope of happiness. The story is wonderfully portrayed and I was so impressed and nearly speechless to see my dear pull it off. She was something to behold. I know this play was very draining on her but in a great way she made it work out and i think lately we have even come closer because of it. To you my love you deserve all the praise I could lavish on you. I'm so proud of you and love you so much.

How I Read

So I read in one of three ways; one of which most would not consider to be reading but those people also like eating mushrooms... ewwwwww Anyway, When I can I like to read in a place with things going on around me. For instance at a bar, restaurant, or coffee shop I find the healthy amount of distraction allows me to concentrate better. I have one of those ADD minds I guess you could call it. Usually, I have to multitask and reading is something that you have to do one at a time. For instance when I draw I draw and watch tv, movies, whatever, check things online what ever I can but ultimately I focus on drawing. So when I read and have things going on around me it allows a portion of myself to focus on things around me while the rest focus' on reading. Sounds weird but its actually one of the most fool proof ways I have found... I tried walking and reading at the same time but it's cold out for one and two I tripped a lot. So that's way out.

Way two is if I have to in an easy chair in my living room with a reading light, Fire place lit (optional - if I want to take the effort to get it going) With a knit blanket my mother gave me for Christmas... (by the way mom that blanket is sooo awesome!!!) Leaning back with a bottle of water at my side and if I'm lucky a granola bar or something easy to munch on that won't trek from my fingers to the pages. After getting that all set up I put on some music. Now I have the scores to many different types of movies. These I find to work the best... For instance if you are reading a swords ans sorcery book listen to LOTR, POTC, Harry Potter, Narnia tales any of those work or if you reading sci-fi like when I read Ender's Game, the scores to Battlestar Gallactica, star wars, Star Trek I mean pick your poison they all work just find commonality with your themes. I personally am a big fan of swords and sorcery my favorite author is David Farland, Recently, I finished C. Paolini's third book Brisingr that my mom got for me It was very good defiantly looking forward to the next one in that series. Currently, I'm reading the third book in the Wayfinders Redemption series by Sara Douglass. The picture at the top is from Brisingr of Eragon. Usually, with the fire and the music it allows me to concentrate pretty well although the comfort of being at home makes it very easy to fall asleep.

Lastly, this one being the one most will probably assume isn't really reading but I feel I get through a book anyway and can multitask at the same time is... Audio books, I'm about to finish up the Dark Tower series all of which I listened too on audio book. This is only ever bad if they get a really annoying voice actor or change from a good voice actor to a different one in the middle of a series. Either way I also like listening to books. Usually, I will listen to books on long road trips if I'm by myself or when I am at home and coloring in pictures as digital coloring is also a job that requires focus and a lack of multi-tasking. two birds one stone right. Usually, I listen to series that I don't feel I would have gotten around to reading. Sometimes if a series is really good after I finish listening to it I will go buy the hard back. Which by the way is a must. If you can find a hard back copy always buy that. they are way better that paperback. Smell better too. To the people who read this how do you like to read?

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Christian Zombie Vampire

Something my friend Tim wrote and I wanted to share cause it made me laugh

........wouldn't it be funny if Van Helsing stopped his hunting of the vampire-- and out of respect spent the rest of his life fighting for the preservation of the species because their food sources are becoming less and less available? He would probably start a reservation to closer keep a track on the dwindling numbers.
Of the few virgins that are left in the world...most just don't want to wander on up to those creepy castles anymore. and with the growing violence on the streets you won't often find your next meal, and more often then not they are either armed with a rape whistle or packing some "heat". both of which can cause you serious trouble.
The only vampire culture that is currently sustaining itself are the ones that hang around in rich, white, suburban areas that line most cities in the united states. They actually are doing quite well. They blend in with the goth and emo niches that mainly populate those areas, and the most important factor is that vast majority of them fit the vampires eating criteria.
A large portion of vampires look down on those "urban modernists" anyway, and van helsing won't even recognize them as true vampires in the first place. He misses the old days where you could count on your enemy to give you a decent hunt. He is quoted as saying that he will leave the vampires in the States "to those young tattooed punks with their crazy gadgets."

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Heres a real thought from me----- Nosferatu and Dracula from Bram Stoker are the types of vampires that i dig. screw the blade stuff. blood blobs and dumb unoriginal tattoos and raves and all. and for the love of god if you are going to have a vampire story, quick making the main character half human half vampire.....
LOVE
-Tim


Isn't he great

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