A wolrd with no shoes

Night time is when it all seems to come crashing down on you. The loneliness and the absence. The other night cherry told me how it feels like your living in a world with out shoes having known what it was like to wear shoes before. Sure you can do it but it's just not as comfortable and or easy. As odd a statement as that was it made total sense to me. We went for a drive that night and I took her out to observation point. It was sprinkling at the time and the rain was on and off. It was none the less perfect. We laughed, we cried we remembered all the times we had that we loved so much. We weighed our options and we leveled with each other. We held one another and we danced. We are as close as friends can be and really this is all for the better. Our relationship was coming between our friendship and we both knew that at this time we had an expiration date. It will go down as one of the most memorable times i have ever had with Cherry and I am picking that memory over the moment in her kitchen as our true break up. As the moment we dedicated ourselves to be there for one another and to always be open and honest. Sure I wish i could have taken her out to that spot sooner in a happier time but that night just felt right. That spot can be so calming and just seems to I don't know I just know it has power. I will miss the relationship we had the comfort of someone to hold at night. Things may never be the same but this is a new chapter in both our lives. As the gods write our parables we will stride further down our paths and be there to comfort and to call upon each other. I love Cherry and a part of me always will. Neither one of us wanted to leave that night we just wanted to stop and hold each other until everything just spun around us. With my freeze ray I'll Stop the world. With my freeze ray I'll find the time... time to find the words to tell you how... how you make me feel. Like a fool, kinda sick special needs... anyways. I love you.
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Time to decide what we really want.

It's a reality that's killing me. To love someone and know them so well that you know that until you both figure out who you want to be and where your priorities lay you may never truly be together. Cherry and I have broken up. It came to be over something so simple and yet ultimately so big. We realized we were starting to resent each other for aspects of each of our characteristics. So it seemed our relationship was hurting our friendship. It's times like that that make you stop and either work on it and come back or push through and further damage the relationship. We didn't want to tear ourselves anymore. We had a similar break earlier this yr and it only put a band-aid on certain things. I love Cherry so much and I know she loves me too. So we'll have to see how things play out in the future. She really needs to focus on her classes and I don't know what I want. Right now I just feel lost. I hope and pray that this will strengthen our friendship and maybe our relationship. I would rather have a true friendship though than a bitter relationship. I haven't talked to my last girlfriend sense she moved out. That's a relationship that ended badly and I refuse to let this one end the same. Cherries become my best friend and I don't want to lose that. She means the world to me.

Dance you fool

So I'm going through another apparent style change in art. Basically i just wanted to try something new and that something new was pretty much what you see above. I'm honing my craft so expect to see better rendering in the future. In non art news 13 months in just around the corner for Cherry and I and the day after that is Ariana's B-day were having a PJ party. Oh how we college kids love our theme parties. The big Japanese Festival will be this weekend too. where yosakoi will be preforming twice i believe. Really looking forward to seeing the story teller again. All these morning shifts are really starting to get to me I desperately need to sleep in for some reason I can't get to sleep at night I have been drawing like crazy; much to the horror of my hand which seems to be sore a lot lately. On a recent drawing I got to use these pens my mom got me for Christmas and they worked perfectly Had I not been in a rush i probably would have used them better but i just used the largest and made sure I worked the tip with the light pressure for thin lines instead of getting a smaller pen. Looking forward to posting the result. Next up Bowling with friends see you all next to the 9 pin ;)

I will get to wear that funny hat again.

Wow it's been quite a while sense I last did a journal. So lets see has there any dramatic change in my life that would warrant a new journal i ask myself aside to post new art. Well currently I'm going through all my music on my computer and getting rid of any I don't really like. Yeah not too epic.

Carlos the place I work closed down on Tuesday because a transformer blew up underground and we were without power for the first part of the day. That was pretty cool cause I didn't really have to work. Me and the rest of the managers and the main boss just sat outside and hung out for like 3 hrs waiting for the power to come back on.

My friend Caitlin turned 22 got a little drunk at her party luckily my GF was there to take good care of me. i mean i rarely get drunk so its always weird to me when it happens. I got to see a pre-screening of the New wolverine move. It was ok I really wish it had been a movie based souly on Deadpool. What can you do though. Those Hollywood types are dumb.

But I'd say most importantly is the fact that I will be graduating from MCC finally. Turns out all I have to do is change my major up and I will be ready to go. I won't have to take any classes or do any christian service I'll just walk across the stage and receive my diploma and that may also include a minor I still have to see about that. But how awesome is that. All this would not have been possible had it not been one for my own laziness because this is a new degree that only this Jan became available. But most importantly my GF Cherry who has very subtly pushed me to success. It's her that had me opt to become a supervisor at Carlos O Kellys, She has pushed me to be more professional in my art and dealing with people. She has convinced me to wear underwear more often and Now she has definitely prompted my return to scholastic. I was actually going to take classes to finish until they told me I was done lol. So here's to you my dear thanks for all the good things you bring about in my life. I know I know everyone around me things I basically am the luckiest guy ever. weird huh. What ever see you all later.

I have picked up a new DSi it's basically a mod killer. To stop all the pirateing of DS games. So i kept my old DS to ply and or try out games first and then I'll use the new one for the games I plan on playing alot. It also can access the net albeit not very well. low memory kinda sucks. It have a way cool camera feature. All in all it will come in really handy in the moment sense i ussually carry my DS and not a camera. I have ordered a new camera too thought. Its a new powershot

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