Friday, October 3, 2008

To long



Wow! It's been way to long sense I wrote a blog so here we go on an attempted update of whats going on in my life for those of you that care. Lately i have been laughing at all the craziness following all the presidential debates and just that huge mess. Really, the underlining thing you have to remember is who ever you vote for the people controlling the government will still be there pulling the stings you just have to hope you get a president that can actually stand against them every so often. Well politics aside because anymore it seems like so much over used noise.

What matters right now is the pursuit of happiness. This is all we have in the world. I like to think I have found that happiness. I have a beautiful, free thinking and intelligent girlfriend that my family has grown quite fond of. I live basically paycheck to pay check and I'm not in any horrible debt aside from school loans which I'm working on. I truly enjoy life I draw and create in my spar time, hang out with my friends, love my GF and interact with my family. This is what happiness is to me. Where spending a little extra and hurting financially for a special event really makes it something you had to work for or sacrifice to do making that moment all the more special.

Cherry and I had out 6 month and it was wonderful I unfortunately had to work that morning but I came back with a dozen roses, and a few bits of jewelry for her and she was surprised for sure and later she took me out to eat at CoCo Bolos the meal was so good. Really it was just a wonderful day all round I can't emphasize how much I have come to love this girl.

A few days later my brother Stephen came up for a live showing of Sweeney Todd at McCain. This was surprising for all of us because I thought i had gotten balcony seating it was certainly the cheapest seating you could get. So we got there and looked all over the upstairs for our seats and they were no where to be found So I assumed they would be further up in the nosebleed section and asked an usher where to go. She explained that when they take out the orchestra seating then that area is turned into seats for audience and thus our seats were 1 row from the front. We got to watch the whole play which was masterfully done and might I add the actors who all seemed to play multiple instruments was just stunning. Naturally afterward we all thanked the luck of the gods for allowing us such privileged seats on accident.

I just got back from KC Japanese festival as well you can read what I wrote here http://www.k-state.edu/yosakoi/

So yeah lately I've been focusing on doing more art when I can and reading more. I have so many good books to start and or finish. So till next time see you all later.

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Tuesday, September 16, 2008

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Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Trans-dimensional Corporal Agent


Trans-dimensional Corporal Agent: Saint

It was a normal mission nothing out of the ordinary for what we do. However, it was always interesting starting of in a new plain of existence. This one seemed to be stuck in a time loop which wasn't altogether bad. My past life was in a way erased from my head more easily defined as being set aside for the moment. In-accessible unless I needed it. This plain and many parts of it were stuck in a time loop one that I could transverse from loop to loop in. The first one I found myself in was densely populated by mixed foliage but to me it all looked my common house ferns just a bit bigger. Like someone had taken the Transform tool in Photoshop and enlarged them so they looked like dense and wild foliage. This certain loop was inhabited by a girl of stunning beauty a queen in her own right she had dark skin but not so dark as to have indistinguishable features from shadows. She had crazed hair that was as un-tamable as the surrounding house ferns turned jungle. She was curvy and not playboy bunny airbrushed curvy but real curves she was a real woman. And I loved her for it. In that loop we lived out our days blissful in the ignorance of the repeating events all around us we just loved the company of the other. Our passion no secret to the wilds around us. The swims in the hot springs naked for we cared not whom could see us for the loop was ours alone. Once while exploring the spacey yet ultimately confining space that was our loop I found myself standing up in a gymnasium of screaming fans.

I was not what they were screaming for I was nothing more than an on-looker. But I happened upon a familiar face. Names were not present in my consciousness but we understood we knew each other from somewhere. She rushed over to me. Pretty, but not to the point of being noticeable she had her own charm, Asian if I had to pick a people group to associate her with. Long black hair with a swatch of purple on one side. She had a look of urgency on her face mixed with equal portions of fear and crazy. To be most specific a caged animal. I understood in the back of my mind she was unable to leave her loop. She ushered me to the side so the patrons would not hear our palaver. She told me of how she had been stuck here trying to thwart the evil plans of the general sense of doom that hung over her. She knew not what it was but was sure that in it's foreboding nature it was after her. I told her I would take care of it, I told her I would make it better.

That's
when I stepped into the next loop it was filled with scientists of some sort obviously lab technicians by the long white coats but I did not know what they researched. My house fern foliage was quickly noticed as we had no reason to properly cover myself when living with my wild passionate queen. I wondered why each loop didn't deliver me with new clothes. Also I realized how the last agent had so quickly made me in the crowd. DEAR GOD! I was wearing ferns at a sports event. Oh well, as if the knowledge was downloaded into my head I knew the danger my co-agent had felt and why it loomed so near at hand. These men were obviously trying to launch a screwdriver through to our dimension to trigger a nuclear device to explode with cataclysmic repercussions. Though I knew not why they tried to use a screwdriver. Still the danger seemed most real. With my appearance they worked in fervor to complete this disastrous deed.

As quickly as I had come I was yanked back to the gym and the girl. She screamed at me, "These LIGHTS have never turned off... my retinas feel like their about to explode." That's when it happened the sound of an object exceeding a natural speed was painfully obvious to both of us. We looked up and out of her loop and past the stadium lights we saw through the transparent gym ceiling a screw driver sailing towards it's intended target. That's when three men caught us both up and drew us back through a trans-dimensional gate. I felt failure for not being able to complete my mission and a loss at losing the new love of my life. May she live happily forever in her house fern Paradise. The screwdriver struck and our reality was rent asunder.

I awoke quite suddenly while driving to an airport. I turned abruptly trying to regain control of a vehicle I had presumably had control of before. Was this another jump? Was I back to my true plain of existence? I knew not. I drove on taking a left at the stop light and noticed but did not register a truck that swerved to take up pursuit. I came over a hill and saw the Great Arch. I must be in St. Louis. There it was that impossible bridge the bane of every St. Louis trip I have ever taken standing high before me. I had my foot out the car window there was not time to take it in. The traffic was moving insanely fast. I started to bump the side as I took the near vertical decent. Fearing for my life still trying to pull my foot in the car and driving as speeds not becoming of a decent or the narrowness of the road I found myself gratefully at the end behind a line of stacked up traffic.

I got out and noticed sick people being carted by men in hordes I got out and offered my assistance and was handed a sick midget I passed him on to the next person like a bucket of water in a 1930's fire extinguishing attempts. Next, I was handed an elderly man and passed him with ease like he was as light as a bag of potato chips. Not the kind you get from the supermarket but the kind you get from a Deli that feel full but are actually just all air. I asked the others lending a hand what had happened and they said there was a fire scare at the hospital and I promptly replied, " Thank GOD they have a hospital under that bat shit crazy tall bridge! They must have so many accidents." They just looked at me and shrugged, " I guess so." I broke line and went into the hospital where they had a 15 story tall lobby and each floor on either side of a man made water fall had living art exhibits. The one I focused on was an orange room with Johnny Depp. I knew not whom was above or below him but I knew I had seen them in movies. I made my way up to confront him about the possible fire threat. Just when I had made it there and was trying to convey my worries the glass behind me was blown out and two what I assumed were bounty hunters or assassins were there looking to coral me. I would not go easy. In a classic John Woo technique I leaped through the window only realizing shortly after that I had no idea how I would survive a 12 story fall. All that passed though as I landed in a booth at a Tex-Mex restaurant with a menu in front of me.

Perplexed as I was at at the sudden turn of events I was still hungry and proceeded to order. When I happened to look over the top of my menu and see the same dimensional agents who had pulled me through the rift not but a table of giggling girls between us. "That's it I screamed." Immediately silencing and drawing the attention of the giggling girls. "Stop following me!" They conveyed loud enough for me to hear that they were the ones who saved me. I... still a little mad that they were interrupting my dinner said, 'Call off your goons." They looked surprised that I knew. "We can't have hit men coming in here after me they will disturb both of our meals." At this the giggling girls quickly got up and took off. The manager, unhappy at leaving clients came up and asked if we knew each other. "Apparently yes," we replied. So he asked if we would all like to be sat together so as not to inconvenience any more of his patrons. We looked at each other tilted are heads as if to consider the possibility and then agreed, "yes." I asked the men why I was in St Louis and they said this is where I asked to be left. Obviously because my brother Aaron lives here. Of course it was all starting to fit together the pieces of this jumbled puzzle were falling into place.

That's when I woke up with an urgent need to use the restroom. It was such a real dream the terror I felt when coming over that bridge the urgency I had to call my brother Aaron for help even though he does not live in St. Louis. All so real and yet just a dream from a quick nap I took after work. I called my brother anyway.



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Thursday, August 28, 2008

5 by 5 and family

"5 by 5" a quote by Faith from Buffy to signify everything being alright. So it would seem me and Cherry have been together now for 5 months. To mark this event I got off work as early as I could and took this precious flame of mine to Topeka to get Red Lobster knowing her love for sea food. The trip was a blast loads of laughing and loud singing. The food was wonderful I could barely finish, we had wine and great service from a wonderful waitress. While I didn't get her roses which I have been doing figured I would changer things up nothing is romantic about being predictable. We got back and both being super tired from the large meal and trip took a bit of a nap ;) Then off to my friend Keegan's B-day party which felt odd. Something was just off about the ella house so we didn't stay too long. Plus we had to get up for yet another road trip.

We were up pretty early so we could make a lunch date with my family in Salina. Which turned out to be quite an even as my uncle Lester showed up... my fathers brother whom looks like a carbon copy except his mustache is all curly and long. His sister Carolin and his mom, my grandma Doris. My twin brothers and one of their GF's showed up with the usual antics lol. And my brother Aaron and his wife came for lunch. We had a very excitable waitress at the Hut and she was worthy of a great tip just for being sociable Then we went to a park and me and Cherry swung on the swings... They really should come up with a different word for what you do on swings. Anyway we said our goodbyes to Aaron and Priss and went on to a play called "The Quilters" Which i must admit was 100X better than I could have assumed it to be. I laughed, I felt comfortable and at home, I felt awkward and I cried. It was everything you could want in a play. Cherry said she enjoyed it allot as well. It really got me interested in quilting I think I may start soon. My Gran and Carolin are both master quilters. After that we went to Dairy Queen where I got to have a wonderful conversation with my Grandma a moment I will cherish for the rest of my life. I am also super excited at how fast my family has just adopted Cherry into the fold. They love her and how could you not.

In other news I started training to be a manager at Carlos O Kellys. Figured I pretty much do all that kind of stuff already minus the paperwork. Might as well get paid for it. I won't even ask for a raise I just want what people are getting paid to start their plus the raises I have gotten so far. Seems fair to me. That would raise my wage by 2 dollars but at least I would feel like I'm actually getting paid to supervise there.

Lastly images in this instalment of the blog are from top to bottom... Final Fantasy 7, A Character from a friends creation, and Electra.
Hope you love them :D

Once again i Love you Cherry :D

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

When one belief could change everything


So me and cherry found ourselves at a bit of an impasse last night. While I have been raised to believe in marriage and see how it works in a positive light Cherry has never really fantasized about it like most girls would. Oddly enough this has become a matter that has stopped us both in our tracks for the "what if" scenario in the future. So she is very resolute in her standing as was I. After it was all said and down we both agreed that we would tap a step back and obviously if the talks in the relationship were already on marriage things were progressing much to fast especially for only 4 months. No matter how either of us felt about marriage. So in stepping back we also get to consider things more carefully. For one there was no way I was going to let our relationship for which I have had few complaints and seems to be going to well be derailed by something that could foreseeable happen later in the future. Sure we maybe able to save ourselves some grief but truly I love this girl and trust her. I love being with her, talking with her being with her. If I have to re-evaluate somethings in my life to make it work why not. Which after we made amends and I dropped her off after a very interesting encounter at the bars with a couple of archaeologists. I called my brother Stephan who was asleep of course lol. The poor boy rose and helped me with my situation or at least gave me some perspective. I tried my best to remember why I felt like marriage was the only way to go. I hate arguing points when I don't know why I believe them. I refused to share Christ with people until I knew why I believed in him and I found myself wondering why do I believe in marriage. It's just one of those things I have always accepted. Never even questioned it. I think I have many things to look into now to even understand if I believe in marriage at all. Considering how many marriages end badly may hap it would be very important to consider this in its entirety. Especially considering how close I came to being engaged to Chelsea and her turning out to have been cheating on me the whole time. I would certainly believe differently about marriage had it fallen apart so soon with her. But the main thing I realized later that night and until I realized it my stomach wouldn't stop feeling upset. In the whole of our conversation I kept asking if SHE would ever be open to the possibility of change. While saying I would the tonality in my voice disagreed with the words coming out. Really it was all about her changing to be with me. To her it would be a huge sacrifice... So when I realized what I was REALLY asking her I had to really ask myself that same thing. Calling my brother he explained that he was dealing with quite the opposite a girl that really wanted to get married while he was not ready yet. Not that I'm really ready to get married no where close. I would admit. And I don't want to add that sort of thing to the list of her worries especially with school starting. So here I am searching to find what I truly believe and if it's important enough to keep me from the one I love. Truly, I don't believe a single days actions should dictate the reality of our relationship... In the future we will see how our relationship progresses because if it only blossoms into a more amazing friendship then there is no way I'll let something like that stop the path of us. She's worth so much more than a ceremony.

Sunday, July 27, 2008

4 months and the return of Ryan


So It's been 4 months sense Cherry and I started dating. This last month brought about our first fight in some ways and other interesting turns of events all of which I think only drew us closer. Our trust is growing in each other and more often than not I feel more of a real connection and less and less of the superficial puppy dog love that most relationships start with. As both our relationship and our friendship deepen I just thank God every new day for her presence in my life.

I'm finally off the meds for the poison ivy and its looking alot better just some residual scars from the more severely scratched areas. All in all clearing up very well all thanks to my mom and my Sherry at the plasma center and absolutely no thanks from the doctors at lafene. Whom I will never listen to again so help me god.

Ashley went and decided to dog sit this week. While the dog is both cute and cuddly shes in no way responsible enough to take care of it. Like two days after getting it she left for Arizona and well I was in another state at the time as well. When we got home I gave extra love to it.

I've designed several tatts this week for my friends one being the tree to the right for a Nigerian princess named nikki. The other being a tree frog which is further down. Both came out really well I thought.

So bigger still my best friend Ryan came back from Japan for a week. Wow we went all crazy ryan and jordan style again even spontaneously bought tuxedos. I was super excited to get to hang out with him on my day off fri. Only to find out he was going to be in Omaha all day on a river boat. O.o Well Cherry and them convinced me to go with them and I gotta say a river boat ride is super relaxing even if there are bands playing on each tier. The last night we played Edward 40 hands which is were you duck tape 40's to your hands and can't take them off until you finish the bottle. We both made it through our drinks and I'm pretty sure I was far gone at that moment then i drank some more definately puttting me over the edge lol. Woke up this morning and helped our friend Seji move out of his apt. Got some cool stuff for doing that too I'll have to re organize my room but I'm ok with that i think i'm going to get rid of the couch sense I never use it and replace it with my drawing table. Well thats all for now. I love you Ms. Ray and I miss you Mizells. :D

Monday, July 14, 2008

When things go up and down

No this isn't about sex... O.o It is about how things have been a crazy roller coaster today. Woke up after a night of tossing and turning. I have been having really lucid dreams lately to the point that I know in the dream that I'm dreaming and yet interacting as the characters in the dreams... Usually very unsettling, what can you do? Waking up after that I went by AJ's to see Cherry before work seeing her started the day off right... happily I went to Carlos. Found out i was working till 5 kind of a downer but not really sense I was scheduled till 5. Not a huge shock but usually I get out at 4. Cherry came round at 1:30 I rushed Danea so I could go have my break with Cherry. She was in a down sort because she's been super tired lately from lack of sleep and on top of that only made a few bucks in tips and was accused of theft or something equally insulting. All total crap because this guy can't run a business worth a sh**. Went back to work we were pretty much dead the rest of the day. My swollen foot was killing me by the end of it. I bared it though it's what I do and I was convinced it would go away someday right. Got home went in to give plasma sense I couldn't give last week thanks to the poison Ivy and my stupidity for wearing shorts in lol. The nurse on duty who was not a retard like the Doctor I went to see said my foot shouldn't be that swollen or my legs as red as they were. So I went off from there called my mom told her what the nurse said and she called in a favor with a doctor she knows thank the Gods sense all the hospitals were closed. I went on my way to get new work boots assuming the poison ivy oil was in my work shoes which was why my feet kept getting infected. On my way up the on ramp my car bugged out. Went completely dead. "Sigh" So I called AAA this time they came through although it took a while apparently they were overloaded. 1 hr later and a few new levels on Final fantasy tactics the Mike's Wrecker showed up. Towed me to Goodyear. Then I walked over to Dillion's where my prescription of steroids and antibiotics was waiting for me. Totally only had to pay 4 bucks... Great news there. Meant I could by new work boots, which I did when my roommate Ashley came to pick me up. Found 20 dollar shoes which is good cause this car thing is gonna cost me I can only imagine. Got home took my meds and played more tactics. Then Keegan and Kevin showed up and I had a very productive art night finished a commission and drew two new sketches which I will be coloring soon. Had good talks... smoked too much lol Now I'm writing this, missing Cherry and wondering why the party of people that was spoced to show up to send of Emily didn't show up. Oh well I'll work on some more art. Very up and down day. We'll see if these meds kick this damn infection s ass. In other news me and Keegan finally finished out first collaboration.. which is below. See you all later. Love you Cherry.