It started with a kiss.

I'm back bitches. For a while there I was posting somewhere else because my audience was getting to close.  Still back to this one, I'll leave that other side for my rants. I have done some amazing things since last we talked interwebs. I have 3 book deals in the works, As of a few days ago I am an extra in a movie. Which is a first for me. Most importantly, I stopped chasing the girl that was driving me crazy. She was in so many words... kinda insane. So there I was alone again for New Years. It would seem Holidays and I rarely get along. No one was even in Manhattan for New years. Luckily, My friend Bri came out so i actually had someone to hang out with. It was snowing and cold as balls. Midnight struck and Bri kisses her boyfriend and I am left staring up at the lasers hitting snow and illuminating all of it making it look like glitter falling everywhere. i turned and said who is giving me a New Years kiss. Three guys took off assuming I meant them. Said goodbye to Bri. She doesn't do well in the cold. 

Walked to a bar where a gay friend of mine was figured if nothing else I could get a New Years kiss from him. I did lol. Walked outside for a smoke and a girl that used to work at the Plasma center was walking towards me. I yelled PLASMA GIRL. She said Hi and I asked her what brought her to this corner of the ville. She said she was coming to see the same friend I was hanging out with. What a crazy random happenstance I mentioned. That's who I'm here with. Then I asked if she had gotten her New Years kiss yet? She said she had never gotten a New Years kiss. So I just leaned in a kissed her. We all went from bar to bar after that and parted ways for the night. Later the next day I messaged her on facebook letting her know I didn't mean to steal a kiss and if she wanted too I would love to take her out for a legit date. Promising that my facebook photos were kinda lying in how crazy they made me seem. Well they are kinda true. Still she said yes. Keep in mind I entered into this under a safe assumption she would say no. So you can imagine my surprise when she said yes. To clarify I said date. I had found not calling things dates in the past rarely worked out in my favor. So we scheduled it for Monday as she has an intensely hectic schedule. She felt ill on Monday so we rescheduled for Wednesday. Even though I had to wake up at 5 the next morning. I was going to power through. It had been a while since I had been on a legit date. So we met up for coffee around 7:30. Talked till they closed down and moved it to a local bar. Then on to Mae's and almost closed them down. 

I walked her to her car and said our goodbyes. I didn't know how the form went for kissing; as we had already done that so I just reset the date meter and gave her a lingering hug. Which was matched in return. She told me we had to go see Les Miserable the following week. So yeah she scheduled the next date. A girl that's actually into me and I don't have to chase like it's the end of the world. I guess it just shows what happens when you stop looking and just let life happen. Did I mention she has a smile that lights up a room. Really hoping this one pans out as she is so far fantastic. 

In closing

Well it's been another year gone by... looking back I can safely say it's been both a good and a bad year. I have chased and lost. I have worked and achieved. As far as advancing my life I have done that to perfection. I have pushed myself both in my regular job and in my art. I have made new connections that will hopefully garner new and exciting developments. I have made new friends and lost some to the pendulum of time. I have both failed to stop smoking and lost the weight I so desparetly wanted to drop.

Artistically, I am working for Misti Dawn (side note my art starts all of her homebrewed porns :))for the site The Naughty Nerd. Soon you'll be able to buy my prints in their shop there. I have continued to write for TNTML, picked up a new writing gig for The Hype, worked on my poetry, and even attempted stand up comedy which I have been told is actually pretty good. Still won't know till i get in front of a real audience.

Another one of my brothers got married this year. Beautiful service. Illustrated just how badly I am doing at finding my own love in this world. Doing my best to find it I just think I'm a little much for any girl. Facebook is probably a killer for any blossoming relationship as I tend to have way to many crazy photo's there and my gallery of gorgious girls hanging off me most likely makes people assume I'm some kind of poon hound. This could not be further from the truth. In the last year I had sex with 1 girl. The year before that... 1 girl. In fact I am averaging 1 girl a year and that's gotta be some kind of sad record. It's not that my intention with any new relationship is to get laid but it seems to be how guys base how well you do in any way. I just can't invest myself sexually with someone unless i connect on a mental level and while i have found girls that i do connect with finding ones that aren't damaged and distant that still match that qualification are few and far between. Maybe i have way to high of standards, maybe I just think things through to much and when it comes to passion can't act in the moment. I'm sure I've had far more chances to hook up than i want to admit to. Just can't seem to do the casual sex thing.

Love will be something to work on in the new year. So here we go... New Years resolutions. Lose another 50 lbs. This one will be a lot harder after the initial major weight loss but I'm going to be joining a weight loss competition. That should help ;). Get back into a habit of going to the gym every night. Knock out way more art and push myself to be even better. Lastly, Stop smoking. Yeah this was one last year and I achieved it twice and then failed twice. So I think i can nail this one this year. Just gotta remember not to snack so much when i do it. Also I'll need to remember to take breaks to just go outside and stand and think. That's the most addicting thing about smoking I've found the quite moments of contemplation I get for myself. So there you go folks here's to the New Year i do hope this one was good for you all.