What a week

So this has been an interesting week. One for a the records I would imagine. One to out do the last one by miles that's for sure. I go from being wildly blah about a lack of love to an overwhelming show of affection from the fairer sex. Starting Monday at sink beer. Where i not only got hit on by several girls but one guy. i know I know I'm spoced to feel weird about a dude hitting on me. WHAT EVER! I don't care who hits on me it makes me feel pretty. One there is Anjana and we all know i love this girl to death. Shes one of my best friend and very pretty to boot. Sometimes, i think we don't know what to do with each other cause we dig on each other but there's that 4 yr friendship that's like wait a sec your best friends. So i take her affections with both acceptance an humility knowing full well we'll probably never act on it but shes so awesome. So here's to you Anjana you know I love you but it's worth repeating you are amazing and I treasure all the moments i spend with you. jeffery the fella that hit on me. I mean come on this guys just a catch if I was into dudes i would have taken the chance lol but he's really great and much thanks to you jeffrey for making me feel pretty that night. Lastly, Caitlin Cash besides having one of the coolest names ever we have an epic real introduction and I say real because our paths have crossed in social situations before but we've never been formally introduced till that night. So that night she made the wonderful assumption that she might get drunk and lets face it at sink beer it's bound to happen and then warned me she might try n make out with me because I looked like Pen from Pen n Teller. Well I was completely ok with that the girl was cute as hell. So later that same night anjana came by slightly inebriated poor thing she always gets really flirty when she's a bit tipsy not that i mind I love the affection. But yeah Caitlin said she was going to have to head out saddened that i had missed the chance to kiss a pretty girl I spoke up and said "HEY! we never got to make out?" She promptly said well get over here n kiss me. Whats a boy to do i lept up n gave her that kiss she so richly deserved.

Two days later were being escorted out of a theater because high school kids think its funny to pull fire alarms. Not that I minded spending an extra 30 with this new girl but it was farking cold out there and she was wearing pretty shoes that showed her toes I just had to assume she was freezing. We finally made it back into the theater and watched what turned out to be one of my favorite movies this yr. The fantastic Mr. Fox. So far aside from destroying my thumbs with texting she has been nothing but a pleasure and a new reason to smile. So tonight she had a going away party pub crawl and myself well my cuzin was coming into town so we did the sensible thing and all met at maes. So it was another night were I got to hang out with her and some of her friends. Sully made sure I felt awesome about myself I mean seriously that girl coudl make the saddest emo kid give up the razor. On top of that I had my hair down again so another slightly drunk girl tried getting me to kiss her and there's always Katie the bar tender whom I will always remember as Zatanna which mind you if i ever had a daughter i would probably name her that. We have an interesting love affair. Shes crazy busy and I'm too dumb to remember to text her to hang out but we always love seeing each other at maes. I'll have to go more often. But heres to another great week. :)

le sigh

Hasn't been the best week ever I can definitely say that without reservation. Started off on Mon with Sink beer which was fun times for sure. but after that quickly feel by the wayside as all my friends are apparently busy with school n work leaving me sadly alone. Luckily There was a new Dr. Who this week. Ah David Tennant. You never disappoint. But yeah it's been kinda a downer week but what can ya do sometimes everyone is just busy. I have also recently descoverd Live stream and have been using that regurally. Check that out if you get time. I'm saintpepsi there. But yeah, cherrys got a new boytoy, my last intrest hasn't instagated a conversation in like a month and my dearest anajan was gone away on work. Can't wait for next week it better be an upper week lol except for having to work from 6 to like 5 on black friday Aggghhhh. thats all fro now pretty short one i know :D peace all

pepsi

Thanksgiving ALREADY!?!

So I got to go home and enjoy what one might consider to be an early Thanksgiving. Ms. Goodwin was to accompany me but sadly was tied up with Guys n Dolls a musical I still have yet to see go figure. Anyway, haven't heard from her really in a long while going to go ahead and assume things won't be working out on that front. I have secured the allegiance of my dear friend Jen to find me the perfect girl whom she says she has located in Lawrence. I guess I'll have to see. I no longer do the whole attempting to disguise myself as whom I think people want me to be so as to be better available for a larger girl populace. Probably would have helped me out tonight when i met the lead from guys n dolls and in a bit of a drunken loudness promptly yelled something at her that could have easily been said quietly lol. Oh well another sound first impression made. Sink beer has become a wonderful Monday night extrusion for me though. Good drinks good friends. I even don't have to feel bad about all those crabs because Cherry and I are doing DDR prior to it.

Well back to this weekend my brothers the twins were in a play called My son the Rock. Kinda felt like a Grimm fairy tale about this king and queen whom are basically very un-impressed with their son and piss off a witch who through a matter of coincidence convinces them that she has turned their son into a rock. My brothers were very good in it along with a few of their friends but it was still a high school play and sadly I have seen both Broadway and very well done college productions. I guess I have been spoiled. I really can't wait to see my brothers in college plays because they have a great energy.

I actually didn't get into political arguments with my family. That's always good we have different view points on the world possibly screwed by news. But what can you do. I did get to see my cousin Jess and Michelle both of which i haven't seen in quite a while. And My mother whom I largely thank just for the chance to watch her watch spots once again made watching sports quite amusing. As she jumped and hollered and screamed KU to victory in basketball and sadly not quite as effectively in football. But mainly I was just really glad to get to hang out with my family and have really goo food. Even better than that sense it wasn't a huge turn out I didn't over eat so no feelings of thanksgiving gluttony guilt. All good here.

Lastly I want to point out a new book I read over this short break by Neil Gaiman Called The Graveyard Book. The Graveyard book click on this title for a summary. Is Neil Gaiman at his absolute best It's written in much the same fashion as the jungle book except instead of a jungle charged with raising a young boy. it's the souls of a graveyard. Each new chapter in a new and fascinating adventure through the eyes of a boy raised by ghosts. If you read one book this yr make sure it is this one.

Well that's all for me Have very pleasant Thanksgiving all.

Jordan

The Ethnic sleeping Cap

So A while ago I was walking through Wal-mart looking for some hair nets Now they had the kind that the lunch lady wears and I was like while I will be using this for food prep I don't really want the lunch lady look. Kept walking checking different areas in the hair care area and I stumble upon the "ETHNIC" section its all of 1/4 of an isle long obviously, we don't have too many Ethnic people in Manhattan or they must go elsewhere for their haircare needs. Well I found a much better caliber of hair nets. They were a lot more expensive but so far have lasted way longer. While I was there I found a sleeping cap made of satin. Thought, interesting something to keep my crazy long hair from attempting to murder me every night. So I grabbed that to. Let me just say for the record it totally works. I love it! I wake up in the morning not pulling hair from my eyelids, mouth and wrapped menacingly around my neck. I just pull of this satin cap and down it falls. Better still it falls with that signature bounce and vitality that hair has in shampoo ads. With that slight curly bounce.

So while I am not "Ethnic" I gotta say this product is totally worth it to anyone who has long hair. So in other news today was the first day of Auntie Maes Mighty fine poetry night featuring my poster. Pretty excited It turned out really well. Also did the art for my friends radio show which was spoced to happen tonight but they forgot their keys so the radio just played christian rap music for like 2 hrs. I will be a guest next week though. Man my birthday is creeping up on me here pretty soon I'll be 28 does that sound old to anyone else. O.o Oh well maybe this year will be better than the last :D

Peace all

Pepsi

Doe a Deer

So last night as I was doing my normal nothing here at home. Watching house and drawing when I got an IM from my friend Gaby to come carve pumpkins. I was pretty excited I love doing the carving thing :D So I took off to go carve up some pumpkins and luckily on my way down my street that is in the middle of town I was paying attention because out of no where two deer jumped right in front of my car. I slammed on the breaks the first one dodged to the left and I felt it bump my car slightly and the other one did one of those crazy back jumps that deer do also avoiding my car. Got my adrenaline going for sure. Made my way over to Gaby's place where unfortunately, all the pumpkins had been cut up. She said she was surprised so many people had made it over lol. So I had a few drinks and just hung out and watched em play some Wii sports. I also found out that the oldest person there was 23. 23 O.o !!!!!!

Made me think man this town is not made for people my age. You meet a particularly awesome girl and she's 6 yrs younger than you. In this instance there were a few there that were still teenagers. I started dating cherry when she was 21, and Mackenzie albeit We're not dating even though I'd like to give that a try lol She's still 21 too. Maybe, I should be looking for a place where the singles scene isn't fresh outa high school. I have made a rule though I will not date anyone under 21. It's not that I don't think they can be mature enough lord knows I'm just as crazy and immature as any high school kid sometimes.

Its just that girls as well as guys need to come into their own and know who they are and with out that period of acceptance of self; then you get from them exactly what they think you want them to be and not who they are. Even now I still find it difficult not trying to be what i think a person wants me to be to woe them. You want a person to see all your best qualities even if your not like that at all. I'm sure there are guys out there who act like complete dicks because they know girls are looking for guys who aren't trying to be what they want and end up with a dick lol. Weirder still is nice guys who see girls hooking up with one prick after another make the assumption that you have to be a prick to get the girls you like. sigh. Crazy missed up world my friends.

So here I am to my knowledge and the references of my peers I am a nice person with good qualities, not a bad boy, not a dick. I'm just me I'm not always exciting, I like to be boring sometimes and others I'll be completely spontaneous and run around like a crazy person. I'm the far left and the far right. I'm overall moral and yet too often lecherous and immoral. I live on a whim of what can make me smile and what will help me truly treasure a moment. A brilliant color in the fall that causes you to stop and look at the trees, An intoxicating aroma as a girl passes and the wind whips the memory of your brief encounter back to you. Mainly, just looking for someone to hold and love. All I need no great over compensating list built around the assumption of the perfect girl. Let me have a flawed and interesting girl over a pieced together robot made from my own quirky needs. Just my thoughts today.

Ready to embark again

I was having a lengthy talk with an old friend of mine and they said something that stuck with me. I am ready to fall in love again, ready to chance getting my heart broken again. Her name is Aimee Smith and I have a great deal of respect for this person. I thought about what she had said and thought to myself. I too am ready to take on the challenge of love again and the possibility of heartbreak. Really, that's the ultimate disablement to our think it out or jump methodology. To keep your heart in check or slide it out to be torn apart by the reavers of that realm. It seems that all my close friends are on the fence about my new crush with the assumption that I will be left broken and hurt again. Really, I have no idea the course my life will take and I am so tired of being kept up with what if's. I really just want to fall head over heels for someone that loves me the same. To fall with each other through fields of clover and lay laughing as we attempts to give clouds meaning.

I guess this has come to a greater fruition thanks to the news of an Ex moving on. Hell, all of them moving on to happiness and me left hoping for my romance unachievable. Maybe, the ideal girl that I have established in my minds eye is just a dream. An assumptions never to be realized. Man I want to be back in Japan. Soaking up an altogether new culture and living in the moment ever second. I want a new insomniac friend someone to stay up late and bullshit with. Someone to go on grand adventures with. I never want to plateau. I see it in my roommates sometimes a mediocraty that consumes. With out reason to achieve they stay and ferment. I live to experience each new moment and to garner what little I can from quick thoughts not meant to be dwelt on. For now I guess i'll just wait and hope that things will turn out alright and I'll find the one that I'm meant to be with the one that loves me with my quirky attributes that are delightful and my annoying grievances that would ward off ill suitors. Such is the hope I have. A future to look forward to.

Why we are the way we are.

So Mackenzie and I went to the Ren fest and wow was it cold. Did my best to keep her warm but yeah somethings are out of my hands lol. After seeing one of my favorite Pirate bands The Jolly Rogers. And many thanks to Mackenzie for turning me on to a band called The Decemberists how I have never heard of them blows my mind. On our way back after rushing as fast as our frozen feet could carry us to the car. We made it to Topeka in time to find our venue and then get some Red Lobster. Then off to one of the most entertaining Musicals I have ever seen and I highly recommend anyone checking this out. EVIL DEAD the Musicall. :) so much fun. Oddly enough the best friend in it was a Door Guy I knew from O Mallys. But yes ever so epic. Mackenzie and I's next adventure will be around Nov. 14th traveling back to my home town. Might be a major bonfire with some crazy explosions if my brother and I can make it happen lol.

For now this weekend I will have my art up in a private art show here in town and right after that rush off to Blood feast as one of the wild things. Should be a fun filled weekend with lots of crazy pictures. With any Luck Mackenzie will be feeling better. The week after this I'll have the pleasure of seeing the play she's in called The last Days of Judas Iscariot.

Finally I'll wax intellectual with you the few that read this lol.

Last night I had art night at my house and had Kevin, Zac, and Keagan over so yeah there were actually people working on art. But we were watching this crazy show with many different animations in it. One of them sparked a conversation about story telling and the effects it has on the youth. So I thought back and said really as children or even youthful teens we take what we want from stories and mold ourselves as such. Take a story with a powerful villain, add an unlikely hero and a damsel and what not. Basically any Disney movie. Sure the picture is painted that the villain is the bad one but what if you relate more to the villain in the story and or desire the power that they have. Even if they are defeated in the end you can still opt for that kind of power and hope to make choices that allow you to keep your ill gotten spoils. Sure we are all spoced to side with the hero but as I did many times in my youth related to the villain and the struggle they had to go through to maintain control of their dominion.

I found this particularly interesting when I had the chance to watch Mongol. Its a Russian made movie that obviously had a director in love with akira kurosawa. The movie was about Genghis Khan it showed how he rose to power and what he went through and as history tells it he was a conqueror who sparred few and ruled fiercely. Some might say a villain but the steps that lead him there are easily understandable and filled with good intentions. So it makes me wonder when we tell tales to impressionable minds what virtues are we actually imprinting on them. Traits of a hero we so long for them to become or are we showing them glimpses of the power that can so easily be obtained with the loss of scruples and the willingness to set aside your values for good intentions that ultimately fall into a deeper chaos.

Meh just some thoughts any way gotta work on some art peace.