Into the dreaming again

I was in the Dreaming realm again last night I had hoped to seek an audience with Ryan but these things are hard to time him being in another country with a different sleep schedule. I ended up instead in well it wasn't a nightmare in the whole of my life I never have remembered any more than like 3 of those. Morpheus has been good to me. But no this was more just an uncomfortable dream. Cherry and I were hanging out together and for some reason tweeker after tweeker kept coming in and just crowding us. I knew not where to go or what to do and all I wanted to do was just hang out with cherry and talk but they kept at us and finally they all departed and we were about to have a conversation when Karina a friend of mine called in the living plane. So I was whisked back to my reality just short of what ever the Dreaming wanted me to see. Funny how the things we want are always just out of reach in the Dreaming.

Speaking of the Endless I have nearly completed work on all of them only a few left to finish the group same with the Neverwhere crew. I have been in a huge Neil Gaiman and Terry Pratchet swing lately all be it I'm reading Children of Hurin by JR Tolkien. In other news---

The single life in all it's glory is just as obnoxious. I suppose it wouldn't be so if everyone around me didn't have spring fever. So many of my friends are either hooking up or acquiring new loved ones dear to them. I don't know its like I need to jump into the fray and lay claim to a girl before I even know if we are compatible. Then again I don't really want to be with someone else its that damnable spring fling fever. Gets under your skin turns men green with envy as I found out in a hot tube this weekend when a co worker got rather hostile verbally when I seemed to be gaining head way with a girl he was interested in. Far be it from me to know his every whim. That's why I like the way me and what seems to be my new best friend CJ interact we know when one or the other has a shot and does the proper thing and supports the other. Although now he's found himself a young girl to take his head from him. sigh... I need to be there for someone I'm a giver and without someone to give to well I spoil myself. whatever life has always been good to me I'm sure it will all come around again be it love or lust. It was a blast getting all dolled up last night to go to the speakeasy party. Check out my pics on facebook I looked good :D

Lastly, smoking is bad for you. That's what I've been told. Yellows your fingers and teeth, gives bad breath and oh yeah cancer. Lastly something most don't it permanently burns out this thing in your throat that allows flim to drain down your through resulting in a cough or smokers hack. So many reasons no to but on the other hand it encourages social interactions. It gets people outside. I can't think of how many times I have seen some of the most beautiful star filled skies because I stepped out to have a smoke. It encourages generosity. A smoker will always give away smokes unless it's the last one in case no one will actually accept it even if offered. It does fuel a sense of relaxation after a hard day or a sexual encounter. Generally, its good. However I think after these last few I'll be quiting to often do I smoke more than I should and don't feel 100% the next day. So wish me luck. I don't think I'm really addicted but addicts always say that. lol. Just need to remember to buy gum.

ps starting a new comic with some friends check out the first panel it looks like it will be a fun project.

Experiance

As we walk through this life we so often pass up the chance to truly experience moments with friends or families. We bait ourselves with excuses like I've got errands to run or things to do, or I don't feel like it and you stay at home and do what ever. It makes no sense to me. I deal with this a lot at home because my roommate constantly avoids going out and experiencing anything. Life is spoced to be one great experience and if we never engage in anything then aren't we wasting life. I'm not saying you should try and do everything anyone asks you to do but definitely with in reason. For instance I was spoced to hang out with my friend Nate last night but my other friends called me last sec to come hang out with them So I told Nate I needed to see them first by the time I got to Nate everyone else was just showing up. Worked out perfectly. Sometimes this catches me off guard I got to see my X the other night but it was right after work and I was super sweaty and smelly. Don't get me wrong I really enjoyed seeing her but I was definitely a little pungent for social activities and had wished I had taken a shower or brought a change of clothes right :d. In the end I just wanted to remind people to take the time to experience each other and not to always put things off till some other time. It will be worth it i promise. Don't always give yourself an excuse to leave early or even to not come.

pepsi

For the Moment

So summer is in full swing and by the gods we are lucky it's still raining I really do hate the heat. We have used it to our advantage lately I have been swimming 3 times which is 2 more time than last year lol. Starting with and after the bars a trip to a friends parent's house to swim in their out doors pool which was WAY cold. Could see your breath out that evening so yeah didn't stay in that one too long. The very next day we took off for what we call Mock Summer where we go out to this secret place at the lake and start a camp fire and just hang out and swim in the surprisingly warm lake water. This year got a a little crazy lol lots of skinny dipping. Over all huge success. Went on to a house party a few weeks after that that most of the people I work with were at and went swimming in their apartment pool that night I was quite intoxicated that night and so kinda got my clothes really wet. What can ya do.

But this all circles the point I was going to make which is never pass up experience. If you have the chance to interact with people and experience new things even if they are weird and you are unsure about it. Get out their and try it. I live with a guy who never leaves the house swear to god he works gets off work comes home sleeps then goes back to work. That is not a life! He says "He's just not a people person". Man I did something like that one year just stayed in all the time never interacted with people. It was one of the most depressing years of my life. I have been doing my best to get my roommate out there and experience things. You just HAVE to remember that if at all possible never pass up any experience no matter how weird it might seems. Unless it could land you in the emergency room or a drug rehabilitation center. No one wants that. I mean even if it's bad you'll have a great memory of it. Looking back even some bad memories turned out to be life changing events. Everything we do and every choice we make steers us in a new direction and ultimately crafts out life road. To you want to be a straight road from birth to death no detours. Man I don't

ConGRADulations.

I just found out I have a version of Gangstas Paradise in Korean lol how weird is that. In other news my friends are graduating again. I seem to always do these updates a week late. Oh well. My friends Nozomi, Saryinya, Jilliani, Chelsea and Ariana. My sister in law Priscilla, my cousin Peggy. All these people graduated and probably more that. Those are the ones I know about though. I went with my family to see the Masters Graduation sense that's where Priscilla was graduating from with a masters in Children's Lit. After that I ran around a lot saying congrats to all the people I knew who had graduated.

Then sprinted back out to my van and drove over to Priscilla's house for the after grad ceremony. She had made some amazing salsa... that's besides the point but it really was good :D. Her family decided to take us out for Harry's uptown made me dress up and everything and while I know I look damn good all dressed up I hate how tight ties can be around your neck. The food at Harry's was amazing it was the first time I had ever eaten there so I was super impressed and very thankful to the Vanderwhels for laying down moneys for it. I gave them 15 to cover my drink, dessert and tip i felt it was all I could do.

Later that night Cherry and I got super drunk with My Aunt and Uncle and peggy and Jared. It was fun and it was really good to get to hang out with family and party with them. Time seems to be passing faster as i get older so I'll treasure any time I get to spend with my family.

We were spoced to do Mock Summer that day but there was a lot of rain and a chance for a tornado so it got called off and rescheduled. I personally was kinda glad for this gives the lake a little time to warm up. Last yr it was Soooooooo cold. The next day even though i had to work in the evening I went to Ariana's grad party at her house. It was good to see Megan again and hang out with my friends family's. Always neat to meet the people responsible for who we are. Well that's about all working on a really big commission project so I'm going to get back to that now.

pepsi

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Wicked fun right?

So man I should have done this a while ago. Here goes. This update is about my trip to Omaha which i should have brought a camera for but didn't really take a whole lot of pictures took more with my phone I'll get those off sometime lol That aside I think it was last weekend I went off to Omaha for a Showing of the Broadway tour of Wicked. But first it was the weekend that most assuredly the best movie of the summer came out. Or at least the spring. Star Trek by JJ Abrams or however you spell his last name. Went to the midnight showing of that which was oddly at 9 oh well. After drenching myself in the awesomeness of that movie. I gave Cherry a call and she was at Mel's Tavern some band was playing so I figured why not go check them out. It was the CD release party for a band called pyschostick. This band was amazing and i don't ussually like metal music but their song just cracked me up. Well after the show they needed a place to stay so they basically crashed in my living room and aside from the crazy storm that night slept well. Having gotten 0 to no sleep that night I promptly got up early and went and gave plasma after hanging with Cherry for a bit and then it was off on a 3 hr road trip to omaha.
Keeping myself going with a steady stream of 5 hr energy drinks I managed to make it there without falling alseep. After getting there a little later than I meant to I met up with my parents and we all went to see Star Trek at the IMAX god lord that was an experiance I had to wait like 20 min before my eyes finally adjusted to the screen. Going back to stephen's dorm after that I got pulled over for speeding and given a ticket because the speed limit in Omaha is all sorts of wonky. But i was speeding and you can't argue what you were obviously doing.

The next day i made sure to sleep in as long as I could and then it was up and off to see Wicked this preformance was amazing to see live. I had heard all the music before but it just didn't do the production justice to see it all happening before you from the time clock dragon to the high flying wizard defying stunts of the leading green lady. All of it was definately worth it. i was sad that Cherry had to miss it. But she did win best kiss at the Manhattan TAP awards. So cheers to her. After the play we went out to eat but I just wasn't feeling it as far as staying in Omaha so I drove on home and met up with Cherry, Caitlin, Ariana, and Chelsea. Had a few at the bar laughed and went on home for a much needed rest that wasn't on a dorm couch.

All for now catch you again soon.

New Art

Chuck and Sara Marshel

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A wolrd with no shoes

Night time is when it all seems to come crashing down on you. The loneliness and the absence. The other night cherry told me how it feels like your living in a world with out shoes having known what it was like to wear shoes before. Sure you can do it but it's just not as comfortable and or easy. As odd a statement as that was it made total sense to me. We went for a drive that night and I took her out to observation point. It was sprinkling at the time and the rain was on and off. It was none the less perfect. We laughed, we cried we remembered all the times we had that we loved so much. We weighed our options and we leveled with each other. We held one another and we danced. We are as close as friends can be and really this is all for the better. Our relationship was coming between our friendship and we both knew that at this time we had an expiration date. It will go down as one of the most memorable times i have ever had with Cherry and I am picking that memory over the moment in her kitchen as our true break up. As the moment we dedicated ourselves to be there for one another and to always be open and honest. Sure I wish i could have taken her out to that spot sooner in a happier time but that night just felt right. That spot can be so calming and just seems to I don't know I just know it has power. I will miss the relationship we had the comfort of someone to hold at night. Things may never be the same but this is a new chapter in both our lives. As the gods write our parables we will stride further down our paths and be there to comfort and to call upon each other. I love Cherry and a part of me always will. Neither one of us wanted to leave that night we just wanted to stop and hold each other until everything just spun around us. With my freeze ray I'll Stop the world. With my freeze ray I'll find the time... time to find the words to tell you how... how you make me feel. Like a fool, kinda sick special needs... anyways. I love you.
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