Explosive Situations

Ah the 4th of July. It has often amused me that by celebrating our countries independence we blow up pieces of it. This 4th was no different. But most importantly it was a family time. The Mizell clan was gathered in Manhattan as I had hoped. We were one short both days however, I still got to see them all and spend time with them all. We went out to eat, got to set off fireworks to the tune of crazy although my mother thought our firework times were a little haphazard I felt we were just as cautious as usual myself especially as I kinda stayed to the back and only watched the fun and made video of it lol. This was also the first Holiday my GF got to spend with the family. I felt she was truly accepted although Im pretty sure my parents think my roomate ashlea is crazy lol.
It was still great to see Cherry interacting with all my brothers and just playing around this holiday.
I was still under the influence of a horrible skin irritant know as poison ivy I think I'm in the later stages of it's potency but I'm going in for a follow up at the med clinic tomorrow to be sure. We will see I may have to get a shot or some steroid pills. Either way i'm ready for this whole awful affair to be over with. Cherry shown through the dark with brilliance as she has been very good to me in this time of trial. My previous relationship can to a standstill due to a similar reaction to poison ivy. Although she hates the way it looks and I don't blame her. I have loved her even more for sticking by me and loving me through it all.

Tonight she got to meet a dear old friend of mine named Mary. She's been away in France for a semester i knew Cherry would get along really well with her and it was just so great to get to hug her again. You really realize how much someone means to you when they leave.

As you can see i have been doing alot more art lately really trying to push myself to get more of it done so keep an eye out for all the great samples to come. i guess that all for now. Love you cherry. I love you family. You will both always be in my prayers.

I told you so

There are times when I am just as dumb as every other pigheaded man. Times I think that I definitely know best... Times when my gut feeling could not be wrong. Well I all to well found that my gut and my head were both in the wrong and on the worst day of all for it to happen. Cherry and I had our Three month marker last monday the 23 of June. It was wonderful when she awoke she found her favorite chocolate right next to her head along with three roses. We delighted in each others company and picked up our friend Ariana along the way to help us go Bra shopping as it so happened Cherry had never done that. Then we wen off to the Candy store got some sweets and after that some food. Well we had planned to go out to this spot we like near a lake. Last time we were there I had seen a tiny car drive all the way down to the lake and figured I could do the same in my van. Assuring Cherry when she protested that I knew what I was doing and that we would be fine I went ahead and took off down this treacherous and deeply groved road. Not halfway there and while it was insanely bumpy and scary and I really had wished I had listened to her we come to a downed tree. well I am ready to admit I'm wrong now and decide to turn it around and get out. To which I make an even bigger ass of myself by putting the front end into the muddy side road... my car is front wheel drive. Stuck dead in what I later found out to be tick and I think poison Ivy filled weeds and mud. Having fully embarrassed myself I seek solace in my ever so understanding and very wonderful GF who did not even say I told you so. She saw in my eyes that I understood how right she was. I called Triple A and they called a wrecker service... so I was able to take comfort in the fact that someone was coming to help. So we went on to walk to Cherry's spot. Getting there to find it completely covered in water. Gone. the spot was gone. So they called her mom to come get them and me and her sister Jasmine walked up the hill to great the wrecker service. Whom called on the way up the hill to tell me they were not coming. O.o I was terrified yet kept my cool. I called my friend Dan whom I was so glad to get ahold of and he said he would be on his way to my rescue. Ah Dan... good to have friends you can rely on. Well Cherry's mom picked up the girls and took them on home none to happy about having to make the trek out there to save them from the dumb BF. While I stayed and watched the sun set and started walking towards where i would sooner meet up with Dan whom got lost and luckily I was able to get him proper instructions right before my phone died and my sandal broke... It was good times lol. But Dan has a huge truck and he was very excited to use it. He drove right down that awful road and towed my car out and even yanked the tree out of the road way in the process snapping his tow rope but non the less very much so impressing me with his power truck. Luckily my car was only covered with mud so driving home was not a problem. Met up with Cherry whom I called using Dan's phone seeing as right before my phone died I took it upon myself to memorize her number. And she did the most amazing thing ever she forgave me for repeating the same dumb thing as her Ex and took me in her arms and let me know that our special day was not ruined that it was all right and that she was still overjoyed to be with me. To me this single action made the past evil events just melt away. I was loved and I was so in love with her for setting aside my faults and loving me so. This is just one of the reasons to love her and daily I am reminded of more. Thank you so much Cherry for trusting in me even when I have failed you. In doing so you have gained my Trust ten fold. I do miss you tonight though... but a time apart only makes the heart grow stronger. I can't wait to see you again tomorrow.

3 Months

Well tonight at midnight marks Cherry and I's 3 months together. I had the picture to the left drawn up for this occasion. My friend Mike being the coolest guy in the world colored it even though I didn't pay for that and got it finished the day before our 3 month. In this relationship I have tried to be myself through it all. The last relationship I was in I tried being what I thought that girl wanted me to be. Not this time. I think there are sides to Cherry I have yet to see but all in good time. Still times flown by we've lived through some crazy drama, equally crazy natural disasters, and the start of new jobs. We are different in many ways but I think that's what makes us work so well together. She's introducing me to foods I haven't ever really considered while I'm introducing her to media she's not experienced before. We both give and take and I think thats the foundation of a great relationship. I'm getting over my trust issues from the last girl. I think she's really starting to trust me more as well. We both have the thumbs up from each others friends and family. It's crazy I really can't wait for the months ahead oh what and adventure that will be. For me who lives to experience life I have found a rain forest of possibilities for new and wonderful experiences with Cherry. See you all next time much love to you Cherry.

pepsi

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Ups and Downs

When a tornado comes crashing DOWN in your block what do you do? When you come close to death and destruction at the hands of an uncontrollable force I guess you tend to take life into a bit of perspective. We had a tornado literally jump our house and miss it by what could have been 10 feet I'm betting by the sound. The warnings sounded and we here in Manhattan don't ussually take those seriously because for a tornado to actually hit us it has to take a certain path sense we live in a valley. Well it took that path. It destroyed the rich neighborhood with the 500,00 thousand dollar houses. Came down from there and took out a lumber yard... not a good thing, then a car dealership... 10 cars were uncountable for the next morning two were found on our college campus half a town away. Then ripped up a storage unit took out some trailer park. Ramped upa valley came out at the bottom of our block just barely missing a house and sent a piece of someones house straight through my roommates car. Oddly enough his car was the only one hit on our block. Funny thing about tornado's they can be very random. Landed just past my GF's parents house before jumping to campus tearing up some building there which included the nuclear facility and the wind erosion center... har har. Then it went off somewhere else for a while and lost it's steam. Crazy huh. The worst of it it was and also the the most relieving was I had my GF with me. It was the worse because it really shook her up and she cried and I hate to see her cry. But being there for her and not having to worry about her being in danger was so relieveing. I held her till it all went away and even then some. It was scary I was terrified the sound it made when it was near us was deafening. Like a scream from a demon mixed with a roar of a train and the whole house shook like crazy. Later we had severe jitters and this other girl that was with us drove me crazy to the point of me screaming at her. Luckily Cherry cooled me off with her tender touch. Still I hated her seeing me like that. You have no idea how annoying that girl can be though seriously almost taped her mouth shut. Oh well luckily those I knew were not hurt and everything came out fine. I truly felt watched over by God. I also found out one of my MCC teacher live on my road sense everyone came out to scoop the damage after the attack. I even got a leather jacket out of it landed near our house lol. I am so glad I had cherry there she thinks I was the strong one but I would have been in tears of worry had she been else where I love her and that would have just torn me apart to even think I might have lost her. We had her closest friends with us too so she knew they were safe.

In UP news. I have started a second job. Not because I NEED it but because I need something new. Something that isn't Carlos to stimulate my mind. It's a New York style Pizzeria. I got to toss dough in the air all cool like. We had the pre opening day today where we passed out free pizza and it was packed and wonderful. Cherry's working there to. She think's I took the job to be with her lol. While its an added perk it's mostly because it's a chance to do something new. I've been working at Carlos for far to long and while the pay is good it's almost like I blank out those parts of my day because they are so routine. Today in an open kitchen I was able to interact with customers and see the happy faces of people enjoying the food I was cooking. I also got to help artistically by creating a block poster using art from Deviant Art which I got permission to use. Although I turned it black and white. http://patxinaki.deviantart.com/art/In-the-city-82343341 Over all it was a great day.

I am looking forward to fathers day. I need to remember to tell my dad how awesome he is.
I was raised by wonderfully accepting and loving parents. My dad influenced my life as far as becoming an artist and for that I am forever grateful even though he says I'm better than he is. He's back into art and loving it he's always so excited to show me pictures he has drawn and I keep telling him to get a DA account to show the world his art. I just want to say I love you dad and I am so happy you are drawing again. I couldn't have asked for a better father. Thanks for always encouraging me to use my imagination even if it came up with fabled stories of you chopping up my fingers with a shovel lol. You and mom are the reason I became who I am and I am proud of who I am and I know you are Proud of me. I don't know what I would do if you weren't there for me. I can't wait to see you again I hope it's this coming fourth of July. If not I'm coming to see you. I love you both but because it's fathers day Dad I specifically want to shout out to you that you are so awesome. Thanks for teaching me about farming, for long trips in the pickup listening to Paul Harvey and Monogram Money. For your mashed potatoes, for long talks about controversial issues even though we differ on opinion, for your weird cuss words that you make up when you are angry, for you love and devotion in making me a good responsible Son. You are my father and I am so proud to be your son I always want you to know how much I respect you.

Pepsi.

Officer Bryant... Super COP!

What a lively weekend we had. I must admit me and Cherry have had some crazy adventures. More Scrabble, yahtze, monopoly, a bit of go fish and We got to play apples to apples with some friends. But the biggest thrill well I'm not going to Lie the biggest thrill was scrabble lol.

But coming in second was a bit of a tussle we were involved in. We went out to Annie Mae's for some socializing. Ran into our friends Aimee, Jeremy, and Amanda. We were walking out of the bar to see these two guys getting arrested and one of them talked the cops into letting them go when the other obviously dumb and a pack of nails. Started cussing out the cops... well we walked on past intent on watching movies and drinking some at Cherry's When Jeremy Aimee's wife remembered they had rum in the trunk so we went to their car to get said rum. Only to witness a SUV backing out way to close and subsequently flooring it. Scraping the whole side of my friends car. He ran up and was all "Hey THATS MY CAR!" which by all means was his right... Cherry and I went back to get the Cop we had just seen at Maes. He came quickly neglecting the stupid drunk guys whom were still cussing him out. As soon as the car saw the cop coming it speed off. That wasn't before Jeremy grabbed their insurance papers. Well sense they knowingly evaded a cop and were pulled over shortly after officer Bryant SUPER COP! chased after them on foot. We found out that that same car not only scraped the side of their car but had backed into it some 5 time hard enough to move the car 3 feet from where it was originally parked. While standing there another car hopped a median and the cop was off running again. When he got back he was shaking his head saying "Man it's been some F+++ing night, so many dumb people." Then these four guys who were obviously drunk beyond reason hopped into their car and the cops like "If you start that car i'm arresting all of you." So here's to Officer Bryant SUPER COP! you are our hero and should keep doing what you do and by god you deserve a raise.

So this weekend me and Cherry both kinda got titled Jobs for a new Pizza place in Manhattan. She's the Events Coordinator and I am the Ad consultant and I guess prep guy. Which means super early mornings but more money :d Hell if he pays well I'll go work for him by god I need a change. Still trying to get an art job for a local t-shirt making place... This is kind of an art job though so cool none the less.

Recently I took a picture that was really old on DA and updated it will more recent art that I think better suits its subject matter. It deals with the painful subject of rape. and I think it's something that should be more openly talked about and made public. So This is me doing my part. i hope it speaks to you all too.

Well thats all for now. Yall come back now.

Pepsi

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10 Mile Rite of Passage

This weekend started off with possibly one of the biggest pub crawls I have ever been on. Then again I generally avoid pub crawls. But this was for our good friend Jimbo as you can see I drew up both Cherry and I's shirts. Sara Gilmore the other girl here drew her own... props to her. I was defiantly high from marker fumes. lol. The next day he had his Birthday party which was oddly low key but still fun.

I may be getting a second job as a door man from Annie Mae's Pub in Aggieville. Which would be cool you just stand there plus you get tip out and a dollar off drinks. Good deal i say. I'm still looking for a new job this one at Carlos is way to much work for way to little pay. My roommate Ashley was made Assistant Manager in a gas station and makes 12 an hr and shes been working there a week. I make 10 something an hr and i've been working at Carlos for like 7 yrs... yeah definately time for a change.

This last Sunday Cherry and I played a crazy game of scrabble too. I never used to play scrabble but she's got me learning words I never knew before. Great times for sure. I gotta say I have no complaints about our relationship it seems to work so well... sure we annoy each other now and then but we really sync. I even got her to play video games with me on Monday and it was a blast we totally rocked out Dr. Mario. Had to work a double on Tuesday; once again sad about the amount of effort I put in with little to no gain. Went to bed early because Cherry and I had a plan. We were going to rise at the butt crack of dawn and take on Nature. Well it ended up being more around the small of the back of dawn but we pulled ourselves outa bed and started to walk to Pillsberry Crossing. From Cherry's house we found out it's about 10 miles and apparently 4 hrs. First we walked in the crisp morning air to Dillion's to get supplies for our trek. Then over a bridge and out on the paved highway. We came to an intersection and turned on a less up kept paved road but still not bad and tackled one mother of a hill. Down a ways after that slope we hit the dirt road. Now about 10 yrs ago I believe they started adding rough gravel so as to keep dirt roads safer during storms. Well all those big rocks do wonders for your feet. Finally, after the ten mile hike we were there. It was glorious... we sat down and took off our shoes and inspected our road assaulted feet. Then waded through the quick running river bed to a large tree trunk that had been washed ashore during a recent storm. Smoked a cig and relaxed. The pained feet, the overly red sun burn, the aching muscles. It was all worth it just to dip your feet in that cool water and relax and enjoy the beauty of it. Not wanting to walk like grannies back to town we called for a ride and went and ate some ice cream. Where I got a call reminding me I had a commission due in basically an hr... which is the one you see above I had barely started on it and made fast work to finish it. Getting it done just in time... All is well today now I relax and delight in my right of passage the trek across all types of roads for 10 miles. I think I'm going to nap now.

pepsi

Who we are, whom we've become

I was raised to believe in being a good person... Some people say that there are so many things that affect whom we are as people. Things that cultivate us to become whom we are. The way we act the way; the way we react to situations. I would like to take the moment to say that I have not been subject to anything overly traumatic in my life aside from normal life situations. Deaths of friends and family, rejection and betrayal, stress and loneliness. Through it all I think I kept my head and I want to truly thank my Parents for bringing me up to see the cup half full... To see the good in situations no matter how glum. To morn when you need to and not to feel ashamed for it. They were reason enough to credit for whom I've become. I won't say those life lessons learned at a personal cost to me did not play a part. But I just wanted to thank the people that I think truly helped me develop. My family is insanely important to me. I know most of you go through periods where you may find parents to be a burden... too overbearing, or whatever your grief with them. But if they are good parents whom care and are not abusive then thank what ever god you serve for your undeniable luck at having someone whom loves you unconditionally and will stand by you and tell you the truth even when you are making an ass of yourself. I look for similar qualities in my friends and equally so in my Girlfriend. She truly knew some serious bad times. Things I could never fathom nor even empathize with. But still she remains a stable and wonderfully caring individual. While things may not have always been perfect in her family from what I know of her and her mother I see alot of her mothers caring and strength in her. She's got another mother in a very real if not biological sense and after meeting her as well I see where she gathers more of herself. I would love to thank both family's for the roles they played in making her so mysteriously caring and nonjudgmental. Something I know I struggle with. I tend to judge all too often on first appearance or even stereo type based on looks. I often end up kicking myself for such aversions to common sense. Not Cherry, while she may still trust her gut if she's seriously creeped I find myself always admiring her patience and understanding with some I might find to be questionable in my own mind. She looks past all that to the heart and dare I say sees the good. Some people look up to world leaders, booming business minds, super intellectuals but the truth is I will always follow happiness... just enjoying life and to truly do that you need to let preconceived notions fall away like dust in the wind. I admire Cherry for being so good at seeing us for who we are. I hope to see the soul behind the face, to delight in the reality of the individual like she does... Just another reason to trust and love her. Without this whimsical ability she has I doubt she would have been quick to accept my hand. I will never underestimate the value of her heart's eye.
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